My Mother

hi!!!

From the heaven down to the earth,

From the day of my birth,

I know nothing is more than your worth,

Just to get your tenderly love.

Because of you, I am able to stand,

I fell and you were there to give me a helping hand,

You smiled while I ran,

Because of you, I have finally become a man.

I know your life is never easy,

Teaching me 1,2,3,

Educating me about A,B,C,

And step by step to face the crowded city.

You are always selfless and not selfish,

I am more important than any other properties,

You won't put me within any risk,

Still you have the never ending responsibilities.

I know your life is hard,

You never complain as you treat this as an art,

I am always your first priority and there is no 'but',

Obviously, I am always inside your heart.

Above lies the sky so blue,

God knows this is so true,

From the bottom of my heart, I love you,

And of course, I know you love me too...

-steam-

The Lone Dweller

hi!!!

He walks alone down to the woods,

With his old, worn boots,

Carrying some left over of the bamboo shoots,

His meal tonight with some fruits.

There he is alone,

Wondering alone even with fractured bone,

He has nothing to complain, nothing to moan,

Emotionless face to be shown.

Whenever he is, no one is there,

Whatever he does, no one is willing to care,

Hence, he has nothing to share,

Even though he is bitten by the bear.

Life is always unfair,

But to him, God is always there,

To make him courages and dare,

To make him the special one and rare.

To him, life is never plain,

He still has many to learn, much to gain,

He knows life is about endurance of pain,

No matter on which terrain...

-steam-

Time is ticking...

hi!!!

Hours to the deadly and bloody test as quoted by my dean and also my lecturer. I am still taking my time blogging and not even bother to study. I guess I have changed, A LOT! It's kinda hard to blog with bruised finger. Well, I got it from goalkeeping. I can't even bathe properly and this doesn't mean I am not clean, ok?!

I noticed many of my friends deleted their blogs and some even have dead blog. Well, it is kinda disappointing actually as I can roughly know what is happening by reading their blog. As you know, I am always concern about them, just like how you concern about me, right? ^^

I have been lagging a lot in studies as I am developing the procrastinating habit. It's very disappointing huh? Thinking back during my sixth form which I always rush to finish my homework and hate to copy others work (except for chemistry). Now, I rush to copy assignments which mean.... "Tomorrow pass up assignment ar? Lend me now" Got me?

I don't know what is wrong with me actually. For tonight test, upon 100, how much will I score? I don't dare to think. Seriously, I think I won't do well this sem. For one of the previous tests, I am very confident that I won't have any problem for that as it is all about mathematical physics. When I got the question paper, I smiled to myself. Unfortunately, I did wrongly in the equation. I was careless. In the end, I got only 17. One mistake costs me around 38 marks. Can you imagine that? Sometimes, tests and examinations really require some luck. If you are really lucky, everything will go your way.

Well, if you have a low grade in your tests, don't be disappointed. It's not that you don't know how to do, it's not your fault as it's lecturers fault because they don't know how to mark.

Like it? Lame? Well, it's all up to you. If we all think the same, nobody will be thinking, right?

I guess that's all for the time being.

-steam-

I don know...

hi!!!

In the morning, I heard people commented that I am the emo-type guy. In the evening, I heard otherwise. I am the funny or siao kia type guy. So, what kind of personality do I have? Actually, I am also confused. I admit I like to think and emo. But I also like to joke and fool around.

Well, you can actually say that I fool around to create laughters and then store the sweet memories inside my brain. Thus, I will have lesser space and storage for my brain to think of all the emo stuffs. Er...I think this is the way....kua. I worry a lot. I think and emo a lot. But when others emo, I can't stand the way they emo. I will of course keep quiet or talk a lot. By keeping quiet, you can prevent yourself from being scolded for nothing. But, that will keep the person continue emo-ing. That's why sometimes I talk a lot, hoping to bring joy and forgetting the sad, emo stuff. But when to talk? Of course when my brain calls me to do so.

But anyhow, which kind of guy do I belong to? Flirty and look irresponsible huh? Emo? Happy go lucky? All of them?

Its very hard to describe myself actually. Actually, I don't mean to be flirty, I just wanna joke. But of course, I am only flirty to those I really like. But....a lot of 'she' thought I am joking when I really mean it :(.

Well, I don't know why I always bring up this topic. Shit! Ok ok...Right now, I don't have any love problem or what. Actually, I don't really know what am I blogging also. Test is coming but football comes first ^^

EMO ON THE FIELD!

-steam-

He still needs his father

hi!!!

He gets older and older,

Though he gets taller and taller,

With all knowledge he gets smarter,

In the end, he still needs his father.

Adventuring alone is always better,

Gaining more experience to have the eye sight wider,

Undergoes challenges to get tougher,

But in the end, there is his father.

Pursuing higher education doesn't mean he is clever,

He is still in the fog and his vision is blur,

In front of him lies a river,

He needs to jump but still, he needs to measure.

He needs to get wiser,

To make his life getting further,

He needs to decide when to push and pull the lever,

To prevent his life tasting bitter.

Here he pours the sugar,

To have his son's life sweeter,

Sharing and enjoying the laughter,

Having all the smiles gone broader.

Here he explores deeper,

His life is getting wilder,

No worries as he has the best father,

But father will not be there forever...

-steam-

My Very First Futsal Competition

hi!!!

I just had my two very first futsal competition and of course, I stand in between the posts. I was very excited about my first match. At first I was a little bit nervous but after that, I was so fired up and excited. But the nervous feeling was gone!

Kick off. I was in my ready stance although the ball was in the center of the circle. I was quite surprised actually. First kick was a shot towards me. Low but fast. Actually, it wasn't that fast but still considered fast. (LPPL?)

I saw him raising his leg high but I predicted a shot as I gained that through experience. I layed my body to the floor with my right hip falling to the ground and captured it. I used my body to stopped the ball and both of my hands to push it hard to the ground. Yeah! It was a SAVE!

I heard a very loud applause. As most of the spectators played with me before. That's when I lost my nervous feeling and got fired up. I know I did a blunder in football competition but the shooter shouldn't look down upon me like that. Half of the court, quite a distance. At least I managed to prove to him that I am not that lousy inside his heart.

The ball couldn't provide an big impact like football in which I can kick football high in the sky but not with futsal ball. It eats your energy and its not that bouncy. Well, I love that kind of ball.

I managed to save a lot. Yeah, shots came to me as my team lost many possession and couldn't attack like my opponent did. They shot a lot. There's one when a player carried to my left and I slided to prevent him from going further. He passed before my leg reached the ball and the ball got to his mate but his mate blundered it. He tried to shoot but the ball was spinning but not in the net. He couldn't kick it right. OUT! But that was a blast high in the sky. A volley of course. That was totally an open goal. But thanks to the ball. If it was football, I think I have conceded. Football can produce blasting shots from a long range.

Then second half came. My mate shot and it was a save. A rebound by my defender and GOAL!

The wave of my opponent's attack became more aggressive. Saves but a penalty because a mate fell down and the ball hit his hand in the penalty area. I got to my lower right corner. I palmed the ball but it still got in.

A draw in the end. I received many compliments from the spectators. Same comment, 'Good Game'. I was shouting like hell during the match. A bit disappointed as I should have saved that penalty!!!

Second match and it was a bit dark. Personally, I think we played worse than our first match although we did always defend during the first match. I was kinda nervous during this whole game. There was a long shot, but it was floating in the air and looked like going to my right and many commented it gonna be a wide shot. But, with my reflexes, I still did a flying stunt to get it away. When I landed, it was kinda hard and my butt hurts. I looked at the ball and, I told myself that I shouldn't fly so early. Actually, I thought of the football goalpost behind me during that time..haha^^ Second half and a goal. It was a one on one at my right. Some sort like zero degree angle goal but not that zero lo ^^

Then, the last shot was at me. It was something like the first shot just now but I couldn't hold it tight and I spilled it. Actually I hesitated how to save the ball :P Then I saw an opponent getting the ball and he was so damn near. He kicked and I put my palm at the ball. A bang and I grabbed the ball and I was totally flat on the ground.

1-0.

It was nice and I know some of my mates felt disappointed and I felt that too. But we had gave our best and I hope for next year. And my pair of second gloves was damaged. I prefer adidas response seriously as it was not so loose like the puma power cat. Both good gloves and adidas is much better for me personally.

Thanks everyone for the support and my mates.

Sorry for the mistakes and shouting...

-steam-

First Competition Match (GK)

hi!!!

Yesterday was my first ever competition match in football. It was the second match day and also the final match day in group stage. Lose and we are out! I didn't play the very first match as I usually thought that my school will produce flying keepers but when it comes to my ear, I was shocked. So I decided to give it a try since I heard that we shouldn't lose the previous match as the goal was the keeper's blunder.

When my team heard that I am playing, everyone was shocked. I see many of other teams' goalkeepers with bare hands.

Mate: Kamu pernah main?

Me: Main-main adalah...competition takda.

Mate: Itu glove lu punya ka?

Me: Ya( What the heck? Expect me to borrow one ar?)

When I first step into the field, I noticed everything shrunk. The goalpost, the field. I even noticed the center of the field is so damn near. And of course, heart pumping with extreme frequency( 200Hz? That will be the most severe heart attack)

The referee whistled at me and I didn't realise. Then he shouted ," Keeper,OK?"

I replied with a thumb up.

So, kick off. I noticed my team defended quite well. First shot comes to me and it is going to my lower right corner. I slided and palmed it away. That will be my longest slide I guess because the field was wet. I felt good that time though, still nervous.

Then 1-0. Yeah, that's the way. I don't know how but I saw the ball hit the back of the net.

Then a cross from my left. It's curling. I put my fists tight but I hesitated and decided to catch it. The hesitation costs everything. The ball slipped through my hands before I manage to hold it tight and I turned. I saw defenders flying to clear but still, someone knocked the ball in. IT WAS A STUPID BLUNDER!!!! Everyone was shocked! Even me, myself was so disappointed. How could this happen? If I palm it away, it will be a corner kick but at least, I won't concede such noob goal.

Then half time, I saw a ball coming towards me through ground. I slided again but to catch it and keep it between my arms and body but, I spilled the ball. Luckily, the last man helped me to clear. I got a cut because of the collision between me and the last man. How terrible was that?

Then, another shot towards my lower right corner.But this time, I was slightly to the left. With full stretch, GOAL!

We lost! 2-1.

I was emo-ing the whole yesterday night. I went for the concert to relax. I played and enjoyed but still, I was sad deep inside my heart. Even the feelings still haunt me when I woke up today.

I am so guilty now :(

Now, I know what is pressure and intensity. I was not well prepared psychologically for the game. I couldn't get the form and shine. It was really tense. When I heard "KEEPER!", I was extremely nervous. Playing a friendly game is much more fun. I hope this won't be my last match for competition. Futsal competition is waiting for me with I am the confirmed goalkeeper. I hope, I can handle the match tension much better. The day is next week, wish me luck and hell yeah, tests too. Training or study first?

-steam-

I Am Still Who I Was

hi!!!

I have never been to the bar,

To see you playing your favourite guitar,

Lying under the sky, looking at your favourite star,

I am still searching for you no matter where you are.

I saw you in his car,

On the road of tar,

Leaving me with the scar,

Roaming around the bazaar.

I sacrificed everything just for your sake,

Walked 100 miles just to get you the cake,

And now, I realise I made a stupid mistake,

But it is definitely too late to be awake.

I shall wait,

For the day you open the gate,

I guess this is definitely fate,

I will live with it till the day I am dead.

Another day passes another day,

From silky black to deadly grey,

I will never be okay,

Until you come back to my way.

I went back to the bar,

You were no longer there to play your guitar,

I know you have gone far,

I am still who I was no matter who you are...

-steam-

999

hi!!!

A dream came true just now. I called 999 just now. Luckily it was nothing serious. I heard there's a snake and someone living at the ground floor complained to my mum that the fire department won't dispatch anybody here if the snake is small. I tried calling but I didn't see the snake yet.

It was my first time so it's always very exciting. After calling, I noticed that the service is not that satisfactory like what I usually read about when I was in primary school and lower secondary. Soft voices and slow. Connecting to another extension took around 10 seconds. What if there is a serious case?

After putting the phone down, I saw the snake. Oh my, it's hiding. The head appeared to be the tail. And hell yeah! It's the head. What the heck? The snake is so damn mini. But, they were already in their way.

They couldn't manage to catch the snake as the snake hid somewhere and they left after 15 to 25 minutes. That's all. What do you think?

But, it took quite a while to hear someone's voice when I hit 999.

Does it has anything to do with public holiday?

-steam-

15th Sept, A Day To Remember..

hi!!!

It's been an emotional day for me although I didn't show much sign of emo-ing. I hung out with my friends, I mean old friends which was so helpful during the morning. I guess it is a little private here to expose who they are. Haha..

Yeah! Some got me right. I don't like to share my stuffs with people. I will only share bullshit I guess. Well, I am the man of crap. Er..which means, I crap a lot. Actually, I am not having a good mood currently and I can't manage to sleep although I feel quite tired now. I had a good laugh just now but still, the scar is there and it is one costly mistake. Regret? I'll take it as a reminder for me. I learned a lot actually. I think 'lesson' sounds more suitable, right? But, who cares?

Get straight to the point. I was quite shocked actually but I am extremely grateful to have such buddies( sounds more rapat to me) around me. I know they are trying to help. I know one of you told me, "I did nothing". But, you guys did a great job. Seriously, for those(those?) who spoke and for those who kept quiet. Thanks so much. Sorry for being so 'por ma'.

But, being emotional is not just because of that. I know some of you might think of the date. Well, fine. Sorry, you are incorrect. I noticed myself for almost spreading out some secrets of mine. Sorry, I just don't share. Sometimes, I do need someone but to crap with me when I am emotional. But, usually, I think loneliness will be my best partner. Whenever I revealed my secrets, I will feel uneasy. Don't ask me why because I also wanna know why.

What to do? I just hope I will be more careful during speaking? Or talking? Crapping? Whatever la...But when did I last reveal my personal stuff? That day, right? Remember that day I told you about...Yalo, that day la!

But,anyway, I love their stories ^^. They don't get mine...hahaha

I would like to say this to a lady. I hope she reads my blog. Sorry for being annoying but that's just me. This shows that you are cute. And to you guys out there reading this, please don't open your eyes so big. I am not confessing or anything. I don't have feelings for her. I mean it!

Coming back to my weird characteristic or behaviour. I know I told only part of my problems or stories to you all. It's like a movie with introduction but without the climax and ending. You can't blame me for that. "Share la a bit" ," Tell us something about it". That's what you all said to me and I agree to fulfill your request. If I ever tell you a full version, just dream on.

Miss my poem? I wrote some part of it but due to the outing just now, I just saved it. Hope to finish it soon but of course, I need inspiration.

There was a guy. I was quite amazed of that guy actually. He was being scolded for so long,' stupid people with you stupid car'. He still managed to smile to his friends. Where is his pride? He doesn't have pride actually. You can't blame him. This is him. I wonder how long will he get his pride? But, at least what he did bring a good ending. He lives without pride but did he do it right?

-steam-

My Past Love Life...

hi!!!

Have been studying just now and it's tough.Really! TOUGH!

Life is just as tough as it is. Even I can't spare my studies from it. What the heck am I crapping?

Thinking of the past makes me feel so stupid although I don't admit I am clever and smart with my current status. If I have a time machine, should I go back to mend such mistakes? Will it be better if I just take them as lessons of life? Experience? Even with time machine I am still having dilemma. What a joke?

Actually, I should be very grateful to have such life even for the mistakes in the past. Without the mistakes, I may not be who I am today. Sometimes, I thought of the special 2 persons of my past. How are they? We don't even contact each other anymore. I know I was wrong and bad to them but it is history. But at least I know what is really meant by 'Good Boyfriend'. I have to thank them for this. HEY! This doesn't mean that I was a bad bf, ok?

There are still some mysteries between me and my first ex. A lot of people asked me, "WHY?"( Why break?)

And there are few versions of rumours about how bad I was when I was with her. And I didn't even defend myself and explain. To some people, I just deny. To some, I didn't answer. Still there are a lot of "WHY's". Well, I just tell you how did I think. If I explained and defended myself, will it help? Will this stop her from spreading anymore rumours? I guess it will be more, right? If you guys believe in me, do I ever need to explain? Take your time and think about that.

That's why some people are calling me 'crazy'. I used my image to pass one of the tests of life.

In fact, rumours stopped spreading in a short while. But I would like to thank those who informed me about the case. Without you, I don't think I will realize such happening in my life.

I am not trying to say she is bad. She was caring towards me indeed :P

But... she did not pass my test... Don't ask me why!

When part 1 comes to an end, here comes part 2. Haha..

Part 2 is very simple. We are not meant for each other. But, I fell for her so deeply. This time, it is me to ask 'WHY?' And until now, I don't have a clear answer but I made a hypothesis myself. Woooo.."HYPOTHESIS", a scientific term. Love is blind.

And now, do you know why that I need to consider many things just to get a 3rd gf? Love hurts and scars but, one needs love. Life is meaningless without love.

Thinking of those two... If I don't drive, will they still choose me? I know both of them wanted my time. If I have plenty of time, but without a car, do I still get a 'check' from them?

If I am not one of the top students in my school, will she still choose me? Which she? DON'T ASK!

If I smoke, will they?

Actually I wanted to say sorry but I guess they don't need this anymore. I didn't spend enough time with my first one. I focused too much on my studies but I don't regret for this. I am not a good bf. Fine, at least I admit, right? Maybe you can say I am selfish as I had heard a few trying to pass this message to me years ago.

For the second one, I easily get jealous. And I can hardly trust her. DON'T ASK ME WHY!

So what can I say? Engineering campus saves me from girls. Hahaha... I know there are some but not many. I see my friends having gf in their universities but not me. Well, this is not a bad sign. I can talk to any girl I want. And, I can simply FLIRT! But sometimes, I am lonely. This is life. Give and take. There is no such thing as 'only take' .

Conclusion?

DON'T ASK ME WHY!

*not condemning anybody*

-steam-

Letting Go...

hi!!!

I really don't know what is it about,
Looking at the sun while becoming your cloud,
Always spotting you among the crowd,
Always listening to you, from soft to loud.

I am here to stay,
But I always see you going away,
I hope you will love me anyway,
But what you did is making my heart turned grey.

I am just a song without the soul,
I am the ice without its cold,
I am the knight without his bold,
I am having a heart with a hole.

I am feeling blue,
Thinking of the challenges we had gone through,
Leaving me helpless without any clue,
I am so down but I still don't know what to do.

You were not that heartless,
As you have made me breathless,
I am still under your curse,
And I need you to quench my thirst.

You are treating me like a foe,
You are making me low and slow,
Why do I love you, I don't know,
But happiness will only come if I let you go.

Time will pass and I hope to be stronger,
Hoping that my days with you will be better,
I am still your lover,
But I don't think it will last forever...


-steam-

Mai yi Siao Liao

hi!!!


Beh sai go jai yi liao. Ai ko cek liao. Go jai tat giu ga gui xin xiong.
Bo bi Bo bi...



-steam-

He Hurts

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He looks for the phoenix among the birds,
There you see, he flirts,
Showing off his skills with his words,
And indirectly, he hurts.

He is never a good guy,
As he makes girls cry,
He left just to fly,
Without leaving a proper goodbye.

As he leaves, there is surely pain,
He enjoys nothing and nothing to gain,
Trying to make his life white and plain,
Indirectly leaving the girls under the rain.

As the sun appears, he acts nothing,
But obviously he knows everything,
Until now he is still wondering,
Why was he flirting?

He is crazy,
As everyone can see,
This statement doesn't exclude me,
As he himself does not know what is he going to be.

He wants to be free,
And he knows he is extremely sorry,
All he can do is nothing but to flee,
Right now he is extremely worry.

He knows love is never a toy,
And love can't always bring joy,
Therefore, he hasn't deploy,
Here he asked, " Am I a playboy?"

He has been worse,
Treating the phoenix like his nurse,
Again he flirts,
And once again he hurts...



-steam-

Injured!

hi!!!


As you can see, I am injured according to the title. I injured my left thumb for the past few weeks and now it's my right thumb's turn. Can write but with pain of course. My palm is partly swollen. All because of...FOOTBALL!

I noticed that my skills are getting worse and worse. It's like I can't manage to save basic low shots like what I was good at during my secondary school life. Am I having a phobia or what? Currently, I am like a noob even with a pair of gloves. When I see bouncing ball, the first thing in my mind is, "Oh my god, must I go for it or wait?".

Maybe futsal and football is not the same totally. Because I played futsal during my secondary school life. But even I couldn't manage to scoop the ball perfectly. What the heck is going on? People improve and what about me?

I feel a bit disappointed about the goalkeeping stuffs. I know it's just a game but I enjoy diving and saving shots. I managed to dive in the air( not very high I mean), but after the injury I am a NOOB. Can I really dive or was I being blown by wind?

I didn't tell my family about the injury as my dad once said to me, "Stupid ar? become goalkeeper let people shoot at you". But he doesn't understand the fun and excitement when you see the ball flying towards you and BOOM, IT'S A SAVE!

No more football for a week I think T.T

-steam-

Finally....

hi!!!


Finally I am blogging! It's been a while and now, I can access blogger. Yeah!
Had been focusing on my studies for the past few weeks until I seldom online. I hope my hard work will pay off. But in the mean time, I have time for football also. Hehe.. Well, study hard, play hard. I went to play penalties and managed to dive(only saved a few to be precise) but not the top corner yet T.T. Am I too short or I am lacking of skills? Should I say both?

Haven't been home for 2 weeks already and it is going to be another 4 weeks. I just want to save some time and money. Sometimes being 'bo lui lang' is kinda hard. Need to plan and think before spending. Now, my car is almost a white elephant. Parked at the same place for several days. Cycled to lectures and tutorials. But at least it is good fr health right? Hopefully, I won't have such problem once I graduate. OOPs...Is it too early for that? Perhaps so...

By the way, I really miss my home although I went back to island yesterday but I didn't go home. I can't study at home and it's very hot there. How to study? But at least the environment here is more to studying environment and also footballing environment ^^

Well, hope for raya to come soon. Hopefully I will be free to earn some pocket money during raya. If any got 'kang tao', please inform me. Thanks.


-steam-

First Ever Goalkeeping Gloves

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When I first bought the gloves, I was so scared that I am going to regret but fortunately no.

Couple of nice saves thanks to the gloves. The grip is good but I spilled a few shots. Anyway, that has nothing to do with the gloves as this is my own mistake.

I think I am going to stick to goalkeeping gloves whenever I play futsal. I like the colour and the ball gonna love the gloves ^^

I dived a lot and I got a few scratches yesterday. But I don't mind the pain as I love the game so much. Moreover, I forgot to tell my mother that I reached this place already. Futsal after I went back to my room. I guess I love the game too much. Or should I say I love goalkeeping too much?

There is a slight bruise on my right hip but it is worthy as I still remember I dived to the right and got to the ball nice and clean although it was a powerful one. I saved the shot but not my hip. Lol...

Hope to have another test on the gloves...



-steam-

Hoping to be alive...

hi!!!


Just now there was a rove beetle in room and it was on top of my kettle to be precise. Well, let me explain as i don't think you know what is rove beetle. Haha..I see many question marks above your head. Ok, let me start explaining. Rove beetle is a kind of beetle, of course. Haha.. But it is not like the common beetle that can secrete the smelly chemical. This beetle has no smell at all. But its body cotains pederin. And again question marks above your head. Pederin is an extremely poisonous substance that is four times more poisonous than cyanide. If you do not know what is cyanide, then, cyanide can bring instant death if you only take a sip.

And that bettle fell off into the mouth of my kettle. I don't really know that did it swim or it hung on the wall of the kettle. Before noticing the beetle, I poured a portion of the water into my bottle. And I took a sip of it. Of course, I was really thirsty. But after that sip, I saw it wondering on my kettle. So, if I don't update my blog anymore, Don't miss me. But, remember me.

Minutes have passed and the instant death is not here yet. Hopefully this is not my last blog as I know many of you are still enjoying my blog ^^.


May god bless me.

Going to sleep soon and I hope to see the sun of tomorrow and also the moon and stars of course. Clouds are included with the sky. And the most important one, the leng lui(s) of tomorrow ^^.


-steam-

My Second Year In USM

hi!!!



Another year goes by just like that and I am still as lazy as before, as stupid as before but become more flirtorious as before...oops!

Anyway, I can't say whether I will enjoy this semester or not as it has barely begun. But one thing for sure, girls are eally endangered species here. The graph has indicated that girls are becoming lesser drastically this semester compared to previous semester although I was complaining about over populated guys last year.
What to do? Study la! Always girls, girls and girls only! Who do you think I am?! I am here to study! OK?!

Er...sorry for being a little rude and I hope for your kind forgiveness ^^

I took chinese as my foreign language and basic of karate as my co-curicular activity. In short, all 3 extra units are cleared at the end of the sem. Yeah...someone did ask me, "Why karate? Why not taekwondo?". Yeah...Why?
Use your head la. In karate I am a white belt but not in taekwondo. So it's easier to score A (hopefully) in karate ^^ *I said I am not a white belt in taekwondo and I also don't mean that I am an expert in it. I can be only a yellow belt, who knows? Hahahaha....


I am intending to get a bicycle as driving costs a lot. Cycling is environment friendly,right?Hahahahaha... But should I get a second hand bike or new one? I have 3 more years here. But sometimes I am afraid that 4 years are not enough for me to graduate. Results are extremely bad for my first year and things are getting harder right? Unless miracle does really happen in my studies ^^. So, steam more and pray more for me,please ^^.

What else can I say? I hope I won't emo so much until it affects my studies. Haiz... Hopefully, I can manage my finance well and also enjoy at the same time. So, all the best to my friends in their studies. Remember, DON'T EMO SO MUCH!



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EMO KING!!!

hi!!!

Emo-ing and it's kinda late right now. Don't know what can I do....Just hate this feeling...

I am always alone :(


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Love Is Blind

hi!!!


I can't see the next day,
As I have a lot more to say,
Sometimes I don't even know you pay,
And sometimes I don't even notice your play.

I can't look deep into your eye,
I will never know when will you lie,
But I will put up my trust, very high,
Hopefully you won't make me sigh.

I can't see a single thing fly,
As I can only listen to people's cry,
This is the God's will and I don't ask why,
I will live this way till the day I die.

I hope we will do fine,
As I am yours and you are mine,
I know you did that not because of being kind,
As you have proved to me that love is really blind...



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Goodbye my baby!

hi!!!


It has been years and finally I have to bid farewell to my baby. Usually, we feel happy when we got new stuff to replace the old one but this time, for me, I feel sad instead. Realising the new one will serve me much sooner making my heart getting uneasy. The feeling is weird and it feels like... I just couldn't express it out.

But for whoever out there, love what you have and who you got. Not all beautiful and atrractive stuffs are better than the ugly one. Not all expensive things have better quality than the cheapies.

I MISS U MY BABY!

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Nerd? What the heck is going on?

hi!!!


Days ago, I was called playboy. Yesterday, people told me that I have the study face.

o.0?

So I am a playboy with a nerdy face?

Actually, are they joking or what?

I rather being called playboy than having the study face. ><



If you are having problems with girls, never find me because I am a playboy ><

If you are having problems with studies, also don't find me. I am not good in studies.


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Am I Really A Playboy?

hi!!!


I still wonder until today. Why do they call me playboy? Am I really one? It started after my form 5. I worked in a supermarket and everything started there. People started to think I am a playboy. But why until now? Even in my university, I heard people calling me playboy or flower heart or whatever it is similiar to playboy.

I know I like to play and have sweet words with the girls but, I thought girls like it. They know I am joking right? I saw many laughing but since they can laugh, it means they kinda approved it, right? And then, why am I still the so-called playboy?!

I don't know should I change my this so-called playboy...

I know I am playful but sometimes I am serious although with smiles and laughters from me also ^^
This is me! I can even laugh or smile when I am in deep depression. Sometimes I even joke like nobody business. Is this wrong?

'Smile to the world and the world will smile with you' I learned this since I was in my kindergarten. Does it mean I can only apply this during my pre-school moment?

Do I really like one? Am I really a playboy? No right? Yala...Even you also said I am not one. Thanks ^^

Moreover I don't look good. Playboy must be handsome and charming right? Then why am I the chosen one? Wait until I have my plastic surgery first then only call me playboy.

Have been emo quite a long time just because of this stupid word. I know it is nothing much but I just couldn't help it. I know I am not!

But whatever happens, I am still the steaming Steamer...


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The Letter

hi!!!

We smiled and laughed together,
Things got better and better,
Until the day with the rainy wheather,
Until the moment you receive the letter.

I don't want to love you,
But I will be there whenever you feel blue,
I don't know why but this is true,
I asked the God but I still don't have the clue.

I am not your lover, what should I do?
I always wonder, where will your heart go to?
You made me come and go just like the flu,
I know you have the doctor but can you please tell me who?

Whenever I asked you out for tea,
Negative answers and you were busy,
This is not the way it used to be,
Until the day you rejected me.

I have been massacred while you are holding the knife,
I am the bee that flew into the wrong hive,
But if I see you in the water, I will still dive,
Because you are my life...



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Another despair

hi!!!

What a result..
Really no A for maths ><.
It's my last maths paper in my entire life but .... (do u know ar?? last paper liao but first time no A...manyak susah leh the feeling)
But what to do?
Cry?
How old already?
Sad?
Over liao...
Happy?
^%#@&%$% !!!!!
By the way, results are really really worse than my expectation although my maths is some kind predictable.
If this case continues, I think I won't be sad anymore as I am used to it ><..

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April the 15th

hi!!!


I couldn't get my mind off your long blonde hair,
As you are gone but I see you everywhere,
In the light, through the water, beyond the air,
I do hope I could once again get your stare.

I still keep the dog but how is the big brown bear?
Time flies while you are gone and I no longer keep my hare,
The feeling of lost is extremely hard to bare,
But I hope the big brown bear is still under your gentle care.

I know life is not fair,
But it solely depends on how you fare,
Looking for another one, I don't dare,
Eventough I don't mind to give others the share.

I remembered I bought you the cake,
The cake that is purely chocolate baked,
The little five hundered and twenty stars that I made,
Brings sweeter " I Love You " that I said.

I don't know whether I am good or mean,
Years have passed and I have lost my teen,
The shadows are nowhere to be seen,
The day that falls on the April the fifteenth.

My heart is made by clay,
It has cracked and will break no matter how you delay,
I don't know what else can I say,
But do you still remember when is my birthday?



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MATHS NO A LIAO!!!!

hi!!!


MATHS GG!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO A LIAO!!!!!!!


WA SI SIAO LIAO!!!!!




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The Emo Guy

hi!!!


He smiles, he laughs whenever he can,
He still jokes when things are not right to the plan,
He is not a guy but he is still not a man,
He is waiting for that particular time but he doesn't know when.

He always look down upon himself,
He knows he is not rich as there is no wealth,
He looks timid just like an elf,
But at times he is grateful to have such health.

He is nobody, he is nothing great,
But for colours, he would prefer yellow and red,
"I am not a good guy," that's what he said,
Making the statement clear before it's too late.

In his eyes, there is no fire,
Searching from his heart to his mind, there is no desire,
He goes nowhere and he can't fly higher,
Sometimes people look at him as a liar.

He doesn't have a good image,
He does not behave like his age,
He is useless as there is no rage,
He is just like a bird, confined in a cage.

Problems at the corner, people at the other edge,
Failed to sneak through the doors as there is a knight together with the page,
At times, he is like a waste floating in the sewage,
But he is not a great loser as he still has his Steaming Page.

This is his life but he doesn't know why,
'She' still exists deep inside his 'eye',
Here comes the loneliness, here comes the sigh,
Here goes the mirror, here goes the emo guy...


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Hibernating...

hi!!!


Hibernation in progress...

Steamer will be back when the right time comes....

Thank you for the patience...


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Mainland Food

hi!!!

A normal kopi 'O' peng.Seriously,there is nothing special about this, and you can blink your eyes already ^^.

This happened twice. In Penang Island, we call this 'gu leng chui'. But, in mainland, it is 'gu leng peng'. I got scammed when I ordered 'gu leng peng' twice ><

'Tao yu' rice?? Look again...

I accidentally splashed my kopi 'O' into my nasi lemak. It's really.... YUCKS!! Bitter with some sweetness...chocolate?? Not at all><.

Waiting for my poem? Hahahaha...the time will come soon. But I don't have the courage to write love poem currently although I really love to write one. Simple as that, to whoever I try to write to, she will not be mine. So, got me? Is this a curse or what?? I wrote to a few girls and mostly didn't realise. Some even thought I was joking with them =.='''. And as usual, I didn't explain long because Steamer doesn't explain most of the time.

我不要爱上你

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To keep...

hi!!!


I know I keep thinking of you,
As I always notice you brand new,
As you are always fresh as the morning dew,
The picture of you always provide me the best view.

I notice that you are small, you are cute,
Whenever you are near,I will surely turn mute,
I am talking to him, but my mind is not with my dude,
But if I don't talk to you,I feel the guilt.

I like your beautiful and catching eyes,
They managed to attract many guys,
Going for you is always wise,
The spark of you never dies.

But I just don't know how to keep,
I know many will surely peep,
Will you run, will you leap?
I am afraid you are no longer here when my feelings go deep...



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Getting naughtier...

hi!!!


I have changed, from a guai kia to BAD JERK! ( I don't know if good jerk ever exists :P)

I noticed myself pointing middle finger at least once a week. ><
Skip tutorial classes and didn't finish my tutorial questions><
Flirt whenever POSSIBLE. WTH!!!! o.0

Today, I went for the shortest ever maths class. It's from 8 til 10 am. I went in when the clock struck 9.30am. =.='''


BK!!!PLEASE COME BACK!!!YOU WERE NOT LIKE THIS!!!!




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The Little Bird

hi!!!

I am a little bird that can't fly,
Even I can jump, I can't jump high,
Up above I look at the cloudy dark sky,
Wondering why do I have to cry.

Sometimes, I do wonder why,
But as the answer, I would sigh,
I am tired but there is no pillar for me to lie,
Loneliness will accompany me til the day I die.

Everytime when I wanna leave, I got nobody to say 'goodbye',
Because there is nobody for me to say 'hi',
I am not a girl, I am also not a guy,
I am just a little bird that can't fly...


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The Boat Without Its Soul

hi!!!

There goes the boat,
Slower than an old goat,
Lifeless and ugly like a toad,
Floating all the way to the road.

There is no more load,
No specfic word to quote,
The condition of the boat,
But it left an expensive note.

There goes the end of the childhood,
Ended in a lifeless mood,
It's tasteless when the tougue fenced the food,
Comfort and condolences bring nothing good.

Under the scorching hot sun, everybody feels cold,
People come and people leave without any bold,
Being stroke in the heart with a long pole,
There it goes, the boat without its soul.

Smiles during the breakfast, dinner in sorrow,
Time is up, nothing is available to borrow,
Stars above the sky, but none can glow,
Tomorrow comes, the sea is still deep but it becomes narrow...



Dedicated to the victims and family of the dragon boat mishap tragedy. Condolences and we know they are living in a better world. May them rest in peace...


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True Lover

hi!!!


Years ago we met each other,
We dated and we were together,
I saw her getting older,
I still love her as I am her true lover.

She cried and I lent her my shoulder,
But until now, I still don't know which side she would prefer,
I wouldn't leave her until she got better,
Because in my heart, she is my true lover.

She mumbled and I lent her my ear,
For every serious and also small matter,
Even when she dripped my tear,
Because I belong to my true lover.

No matter how far she is right now, she is always near,
Even tough she is six feet under,
She is still my dear,
Because we are true lovers, FOREVER...


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Obstacles...

hi!!!


It's been a long time that I didn't post a single poem.Anyhow, there is no poem today XD
Miss my poem?Hahahaha.....I assume that is a 'yes'. I see the answer in your eyes ^^


Well, I could hardly wake up this morning. I heard my alarm clock triggering the alarm with fast pace and this shows it's been triggering for a long time. By the way, is the word 'triggering' suitable in this case? Forgive my english if ....faham faham la ^^.
It took me for around 5 seconds to open my eyes. I heard it so loud but I just couldn't get myself up.

Then, of course I have to switch off the alarm. I put the clock under my bed at the right top corner(or somewhere around there ^^). This means I have to turn my body facing my bed and switch off the alarm using my left hand,mostly people do that because it's very convenient. But, I didn't do that for today T.T. I jump of my bed and switch it off using my right hand instead.

The reason is very simple. My left was numb.

Then,after lecture class, I drove to bank and I almost got an accident. If I didn't break fast enough, it will be a head to head collision. Can you imagine Steamer being sandwiched? That's very bad of you ><

I wanted to make a right turn into the bank and from there, it's a narrow road. I made a fast turn as I saw a car from the opposite side overcoming the bumper. As you know, if I decided to wait, it will be a long wait as the car has to slow down, crossing the bumper and then speed up. So, I sped to the right narrow road. Suddenly, a car came out from that narrow road(out from the bank parking lot) and luckily, I pressed the break pedal hard enough. No screeching sound ^^.

Then, I drove to cafeteria and I almost hit someone on bike because I cornered into another lane. Well, I couldn't see that guy because the window frame was blocking me from spotting that guy. Er....I was having books and piles of papers on my back-seat. According to physics law,cornering in a larger radius will result in smaller (something) force. In short, larger radius will make my books and stuffs shift in a shorter distance and hence, they will not be so easy to fall. Ok Ok!I sped. And forget about the law if you don't get me.

I stopped my car and the guy stopped his bike. OMG!!! The people from the security department. Can kena saman one lo....He called my to draw down my window and ...

Blue shirt guy: Kamu mau jalan mana ni
Stemer: (Smiling so SWEEEETLY) Sorry Sorry...
Blue shirt guy: (smiled back)

I sensed that he just wanna give me a warning and that smile indicated me as a free man^^
Fuyoh....

Dare to let me fetch??? Hahaha XD

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Monster And A Cute One >.<'''

hi!!!


I dropped my english course and my whole school dropped together.


Steamer: (Walked in the room)
Teacher: Who are you? Alien ar?
Steamer: o.0'' (shocked) Er...I was asked to change to your class.
Teacher: Why?How come? I warn you first. I am a monster and a tyrant. Are you sure you are coming to my class?
Steamer: 0.o''' Er....perhaps so.
Teacher: My class is at night time. (But I heard nine)
Steamer: 9am or 9 pm?
Teacher: NIGHT! N.I.G.H.T NIGHT!
Steamer: Let me discuss with my friends first.
Teacher: Come on. Give me your name. And why do you need to discuss?
Steamer: Because you said you are a monster and a tyrant ^^v (I am always that cheeky)
Teacher: Yes I am. So now,how?
Steamer: Discussing.
Teacher: Can la you. Your english is so fluent. (But, I just spoke a few words only) Sure A la.
Steamer: (continue discussing but ....o.0'''')
Discussing and in the end,we dropped.

Teacher: Hey hey! That guy,you are cute. What's your name?
Steamer:o.0''' (pointing to myself) Me??
Teacher: Yeah you!
Coursemate: J***Y
Teacher: J***Y,don't run har. I want to see you next sem.
Steamer: Hope so (but I didn't,I don't and will never will ^^v)


A 20 year old guy being called cute. Is it a good news or a disgrace?



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1st blog of 2010

hi!!!


Happy new year everyone although it's a little bit late ^^v

Anyhow, a new year, a new decade but same old appetite for the steamy Steamer ^^v


10 slices of bread as supper ^^v

What about this? 2 packets of instant noodles with 4 slices of bread ^^v

What is this? Hahahaha....it's a brain of a pig. Anyway, it's really nice although it doesn't look so good.

New year, new decade and of course new pair of shoes. Hahahaha...this got a lot of attention when I wear it during lectures ^^v

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