The worst project!

hi!!!

It has been almost half year since I last blogged. The number of view is declining. Anyway, let's get straight to the point. I am in deep shit. I guess not many will experience this kind of shit but there will be some or a few. To those who had been in this shit, I wonder how you guys faced this kind of shit.

Here goes the shit. I am doing my final year project. Since the beginning of the project, I thought I will be doing at least okay but not that way. With my current supervisor, I am extremely stressed! At first I did not really wanted to choose his title as his attitude and behaviour is rather weird. Anyhow, he told me he will guide me and he offered me a copy of senior's thesis. That made me to change my mind. I took his title!

From that moment, shit has gone worse and worse. There were a few times which he was absent during our appointment for the project discussion. The problem is, he set the time and day all by himself and I agreed with it but he was NOT there! There was once in which I needed to go to his office for 3 times just to meet him ONCE! He didn't even apologize and act like he did not do anything wrong.

Secondly, he told me I have to plan a meeting with him to discuss and not simply go to him and ask questions. I am fine with it since this is his preference. However, most of the time I told him my problem and asked for guidance, he just answered, "That is not my problem. You have to find out yourself!" What kind of guidance is this?

Next, his English sucks! Although mine is not perfect but I am sure mine is much more better than his. Sometimes I don't understand what's his talking about and I asked, he showed me a black face and replied with a unpleasant tone, "You still don't understand!" Of course,man! What the hell?

He told me to do a few tasks and I did them but in the end, he told me to do another brand new thing again. Imagine how much time and effort has been wasted. And then, he said I was doing a last minute job. He doesn't like to go straight to the point.

Right now, I am still blur with my goal and objective of the project. I just did my best and hope for the best. That is nothing much I can do right now as I had make a very huge mistake at my first step. Oh ya! I just forked out around 850 bucks and he told me I can claim back with the maximum amount of 500 bucks and it is not guaranteed that I will get back the maximum amount of 500 bucks. What does that mean? Wait and see. All I need now is hope and miracle.

I kept this problem away from my family members. Letting them know will definitely worry them. I hope I am strong enough to walk this path alone and I am really having a stressed moment right now. I dreamed of my project when I was sleeping. The first thing and last thing on my mind will always be my project. I just need some guidance. It is that hard? I just wanna know what he really wants.

I really envy those with very caring supervisors. Some of my friends told me how good their supervisors treated them. Why I am not sharing the same supervisors with them?

Hopefully I will grow stronger...

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