Sleepless night...

hi!!!

I still miss her although it has been a year,

Sometimes I think of her and I couldn't resist my tear,

I still have her in my memories, so clear,

And why did she leave me without my only dear?

I wish I could have her in my sight,

She is always my choice no matter black or white,

And again,I hope to hold her tight,

To be with me during my sleepless night.

I wonder how is she doing,

When she doesn't realise that I am suffering,

Will she ever care if she is still the one I think,

Or she will never care even I am no longer a human being?

-steam-

I see white!

hi!!!

It strikes again...It will never end...

This morning, a severe stomachache caused me to wake up. While walking to the toilet, the headache is killing me. The headache was getting worse and worse for every steps I took, until the final stage, where everything started to turn white through my eyes. I was so scared of fainting. Imagine when no one is around and you fainted in the toilet when everybody is fast asleep.

Then, I walked back to my room and I saw my roommate waking up preparing to go for the McD breakfast promotion. The feeling of severe stomachache was still there. I lied down and then, I opened my eyes, going to the toilet once again to settle the business. I didn't even know whether did I sleep or it was a moment of lying on the bed. This time, the headache was not that severe anymore.

I went back to my room noticing my roommate was gone. I wanted to leave a notice for the rest of the other 2 and I noticed another one was gone too. The notice of telling him I am sick and help to do whatever it's necessary in the class ^^.

Luckily I didn't join my friends for the McD breakfast as with this condition, I wouldn't make it. I guess I got this from lacking of sleep. Well, it's only my guess.

Then, I went back to sleep to get more rest and someone knocked the door. WHAT THE HELL!!

I opened the door and that person was looking for my missing roommate. I went back to sleep and woke up at 12! What a waste of time! But fortunately, everything seems to be okay and I got a set of Big Breakfast on my table. What a lovely roommate for that. Actually, the headache is still haunting me but it's just very light.

But what I had in mind during that 'critical' time was, ' Is there a test today? Anything important?' Well, I guess I care about the tests more than myself. Shhhh....don't tell my mum. Please!!

-steam-

Response!

hi!!!

Well, here are my second and third pair of gloves.

My second gloves. It looks dirty but I have already washed it T.T
The older type of Adidas Response.

My latest glove. Same model with the second one but different colour and more 'yeng'.

The newer release of Adidas Response. But I bought this one cheaper by Rm10 when the older one is out of stock.

What can I say? First and foremost I like the dynamic cut which fits my hands excellently. Next, it has rubber which covers my whole hand except for my thumb. Well, they for for training purposes on as you can see the word 'Training' on the wrist strap. But anyhow, the real glove costs much more expensive than this and it's very rare in the store. I saw once which cost Rm300 plus. This suits me financially. Besides that, it is recommended for amature goalkeeper. Well, I know the word amature doesn't sound so good rather than professional. But, I am not a professional and I am not from a rich family.

So, for normal playing, second gloves!
Competition, latest one la of course!

I do really appreciate if someone gives me Adidas Response gloves as present n^^V

For most of the people, a goalkeeper needs glove to perform better. Well, it is only true if the gloves suit the keeper. And, I saw some goalkeeper with gloves but they were not so daring to do flying stunts or even simple ground stretch. It defeats the purpose of being a goalkeeper even though with the best gloves. I admit I injured many times because of this so called 'stupid' stunt but I still love standing between the post. Of course, it's my passion ^^.

Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to say I am good at the stunts and of course I sometimes made mistakes. Well, can I say I am better than a layman but incomparable with a real goalkeeper? Gloves are just to assist a goalkeeper as they are shock absorber and better grip provider ( if gloves are clean).

Sometimes being a goalkeeper is rather boring if your defense is pretty strong and secured. All I did was stand and watch. But if defense is lacking, goalkeeper must be really hardworking, baby!

In conclusion, goalkeeper is USELESS if the team is really strong in defense.

'To become a true goalkeeper, one must not have fear of pain and must be alert with fast response.

Go for the stunts first before trying to own a set of gloves.'

Steaming goalkeeper

-steam-

Trust

hi!!!

I noticed that trust is very important. I like people to trust me and so do you but I can hardly make it successful ><.

Noticing most of the people hardly trust me in what I do. Sometimes, I just said something so seriously but they thought I was joking. Well maybe I am too playful until whatever comes out from my mouth will be nonsense. And of course, I hardly trust people back. This is me. If you wanna know my secret, point a gun at my head and I will tell you, but only half of it o.0'''

It was a friend of mine that changed my personality. I remember it all happened when I was 16. He blew my secret and I told my self not to reveal any of my secret since that very moment. Even if you are the closest one to me, you have to find out yourself what am I actually hiding from you. And because of this, nobody wanna be close to me T.T . Izit?

Don't you think it's so sweet that people understand you so deeply until they know what are you thinking and you don't have to tell them at all?

Sweet right? BULLSHIT!

It's f***ing dangerous to have such people around. There is no more room for privacy. If you want people to invade your privacy, then go ahead @.@

So,what should I do? Trust people more or make them trust me more?

Trust people more? Hehe..I am very stubborn, honestly.

Seriously, to everybody especially you, I wanna sincerely apologize if I ever didn't trust you and I think it will happen again. Forget me if you want me to trust you more than anyone else.

-steam-

Mr.Emo

hi!!!

One word.

EMO!

-steam-