Friday, July 31, 2009

Am I sick?

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Walaueh...Planned to study but got headache. H1N1?


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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

H1N1

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Unsuccessful love...

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Looking at her going away,
Looking for her but she is hiding inside the bay,
There is nothing more to say,
But I will surely remember that day.

I am never inside her purse,
As I know this love will make tears burst,
She can push me from the last to the first,
She can also drag me from the best to the worst.

Looking at her flying freely like a bird,
Seeing her smile and I feel the hurt,
No matter how clean it is, she has left me some dirt,
Leaving me behind without saying a single word.

It's been quite some time,
Enough for a man to become a mime,
For the wind to ring the chime,
The taste of sour is still more than the lime.

I am here and I can't be there,
I am single and I can't be your pair,
It's ok as I know love is never fair,
All the best from me and please do take care...



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She is still the one...

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From the previous blog, I still miss her. And now, I still miss her. For what I do,I can see her. Chocoloate,her favourite. I see chocolate food, I see her. I see any golden hair, I see her. When I walk back to my hostel alone,that is the time I think of her the most and also the time before I sleep. Her sweet smile. Her cute attitude and she is very nice to be hugged. Yeah...I wonder how is her?Is she doing ok? Does she think of me when I think of her?

I saw sand on the sofa of my car and,it's the seat she usually sits. The time when we went to the beach. The only gal that hold my hand along the coast.

I still remember how she put her hand on top of my hand when I was holding the gear. The gentle hold that makes me feel comfortable.

Movie?Yeah...I will for sure think of her. The time when we watched movies together especially horror movies. She is so cute. Hugging her and hunting for the ghost in the movie. Comfort her whenever she is scared. Walaueh..those days....

I think I won't have the cahnce to meet her anymore....so,just take care.


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H1N1 in USM?

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Hahaha...I am back home now. One week holiday! They said there is no H1N1 case but a lot of high fever cases. So they let us back. Funny? Hahahha....

I woke up and went to bathe as usual and all my roommates were still sleeping. But when I was out from the room, I sensed something was a bit not right because I saw more people standing outside their rooms and talking with thier phone rather than only a few usually. Then I went back to the room and, I saw all my roommates were awake. They said got quarantine! What the heck! I can't leave the room? But they said can go back,=.=''' .Hahahaha.... So, I went for the check up before driving back and my body temperature is not 37! What? Anyway, I am not joking, I didn't get 37. If anything goes wrong,don't miss me but remember me.


But actually, yesterday, I saw the ground floor of my hostel was sealed with the passage way being sealed. I thoughht there is renovation but I couldn't see any reason for that. Then, I thought of H1N1 because I sensed something. I don't know my instinct is so choon. Don't play with guy's instinct,gals! Hahahaha....

Anyway,my body temperature is 36.9.Hahahha...too low...

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Something in USM

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I went to engineering maths lecture today and I am beginning to catch what the lecture is lecturing about. For the past few days, I went there and only day dream because I really can't understand at all. I went to library to borrow 3 thick books of engineering maths. It's like 2 stacks of tissue paper, I mean the thickness la,the thickness of the tissue paper boxes of course...HAhahaha...anyway, yesterday I was quite happy with it because I sacrificed all my time for maths and it's worth doing so. Chinese community prom night, I skipped and I am the only one that skipped. I skipped mechanical engineering camp. All because of mathematics. My coursemate/ friends told me that they need at least 3 to 4 hours to finish the tutorial given but 2 hours is enough for me...^^Walaueh...Hahahahaha....but there is a question that I couldn't solve at all. Haix.....but they can't solve more than me...^^

To become the top in maths in USM? I became the top in Pykett school and MBS, but USM? I doubt it.My lecturer told me that there will be 40 % of students to fail the subject every semester. When I hear that, I hope she is not talking about me. I really can't prepare myself to face such situation. To fail in maths for the first time and it's in unviersity?Joking?

But,I realised that I have accomplished one of my dreams yesterday. Hahaha...actually, I have accomplished it quite a while just I didn't realised it. When I was small, I always wait for the day for me to enter university. And I always hope that it will be USM. I don't really know why must it be USM. But, now,today, I am in USM,taking mechanical engineering course! Yeah! Next, I must be a mechanical engineer! When I was small, I always waited for me to enter USM. I wondered will the day come?Hahahaha....actually it's very fast but I felt it's very slow when I was small because it took many years and right now, the years have passed me just like that.


Anyway,I heard there is H1N1 case here. Yesterday, someone used the speaker to tell anyone with the symptoms such as flu,cough,headache,fever ,etc to see the doctor immediately and the medical center is still open and the time is already 6 plus...

If I am the unlucky one and I can't survive the fight, I know the god doesn't want me to become a mechanical engineer. I am not destined to be then. Please do the way I want it,don't cry but pay me the last respect.



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Sunday, July 26, 2009

I can't sleep well yesterday...

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I went to bed and I can't really sleep yesterday...


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Saturday, July 25, 2009

I am in a dangerous state...

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It's been more than 2 weeks I have been in single status. Still, I am not used to it. Hahaha...I know I am a flexible person. I can adapt well when I stay in UKM. And then, from UKM to USM, I have no problem at all. But this, I still miss her and I know it's useless to miss someone that is not mine.

Losing her is really a big deal to me. I think you all should know that I always hide myself inside my own world and doing my own stuffs, thinking and solving problems by my own without sharing most of them with my friends even my best friends. But, she is different. I felt quite comfortable by sharing my problems with her. Ya, I know many gals wanna share my problems but...hehe...(I know I am perasan).

When I am alone, I usually study but sometimes I do day dream. And I got once thought of me looking at her holding other guy's hand. Hahahaha...that will be very heart breaking if I still like her during that time. I think it will take quite a long time to let go of her because....I AM A LOYAL GUY!Yeah...agree??

Everytime I go to USM or come back from USM, I will pass her house and, it brings back a lot of memories. I drove so far just to find her. Hahaha...There are a few times I speeded to TAR just don't wanna make her wait for me. Well, and I failed most of the times and I know it's very dangerous. Luckily, my parents don't have any idea of it.hehehe...

Even in USM, I saw a sweet and lovely couple at the canteen. Argh!!!So jealous of them because all the while I have been dreaming of a girl that can always listen to what I said. The obedient but playful type. It's very hard to find a perfect girl, I know that. And during form 4 or form 5, I saw a couple sharing a McD flavor twist ice-cream. It's green in colour. I told myself that one day, I will share it with my girlfriend but, I didn't have the chance. I wonder will I ever have the chance. I know it's just a small matter,but for me, it is one of my dream in my life. But who wanna share it with me?Hahaha...I am not handsome,no rich, not smart...Not handsome won't make a girl proud, not rich and I can't afford to spend on her, not smart and I don't have time for her because I need extra time to study. But, I can't complain much because it's gift from the god.

It's been two weeks now and I wonder what will happen after 2 years. Will I still in love with her? Will I find another one? Or I don't like anyone?

I always ask myself about this.

Will a girl date a guy that doesn't spend enough time with her? Will a girl date a guy that can't even buy her a drink? The guy is me of course. My life is all about studying especially maths. I will get angry and disappointed if I don't have the maths knowledge that I should have. Well, I am weird and maybe the crazy one. Maybe that's why I have two unsuccessful love life. I heard people said that usually the one that loves or is good in maths and physics, they are crazy and usually doesn't have a life partner. I hope I am not one of them. I do love maths but I don't wanna sacrifice my life just because of maths.

Haix....I am quite down right now and I don't dare to find her to tell her. I am a coward, I know that. At least I have my blog to help me express it out. I am really afraid that the day will come. The day she hold another guy's hand while I still have her in my heart. I know many of you can't imagine I am in this kind of situation. It's very dangerous. It's very troublesome. This girl is great, she is always the winner in my heart. The calm BK is on long holiday...I hope he will be back...


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Friday, July 24, 2009

Is there such love?

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I watched a movie just now and I was kinda amazed. There is a couple, and they still love each other even after breaking up for more than 2 years. Is there such love? I can't even guarantee myself that I can find such person in my life...hahaha...Well, I hope they do exist to make the world more loveable...^^


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How did I go back from USM?

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Well, for these 2 weekends, I have been staying at my home instead of inside USM. Well, I can't online at USM because the line so damn slow and it's even slower than a tortoise.

So,how did I come back? Wanna know? Don't want? Sorry, you are at the wrong blog.

The first time is my mother's friend's sister fetch me to Parit Buntar terminal bus station. Then, I took an express bus to jetty. Rm3.90...

Then, I took ferry across and it costs Rm1.20.
Then I took a bus to somewhere near my home and it is Rm1.

Then my coursemate fetched me back to USM, with some 'ahem' of course.


This time, I took the USM bus to USM main campus and asked my dad to fetch me back. It's free if the petrol of the bike's petrol doesn;t come into account.


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Sunday, July 19, 2009

Disappointing...

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Walaueh...I am now online at usm. Can't access to certain web and it is kinda restricted. I remembered that UKM lecturer asked me to access to youtube if there is any experiment going on to lean it on youtube. But now, where can I learn it?


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I'm facing physics problem...

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I started studying and I am having a problem here. Not in studying mood but I did force myself to study and I managed to understand some. Actually it's about the electrical part because I just have the electrical tech notes only. And I learnt all of them before. Some are even worse, I learnt that since form 2 or 3. And the form 6 part, I did forget some and of course not all. If I really forget all, I am crying now already...

The funny part is....Ohm's Law. Hahaha...I won't ever forget that!

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Friday, July 17, 2009

Do I like USM?

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Well, it has been a week that I UKM. Anyhow, I dreamt of the life in UKM. Yeah, I really enjoyed there. I wondered alone from morning to night by just walking around the main campus. I am not afraid of getting lost because maps are provided. The hostels there are nice.
But UKM is not perfect of course. Sometimes, I have to walk up the hill to reach my destination. But anyhow, I managed to walk for a distance. It's a 20 to 30 minutes walk. Instead of taking bus, I walked with sweat. Well, the time for the bus is uncertain, that's why I walked.

Well, the girls there...I got nothing to complain. In fact, some are really pretty! And amazingly, some are still available but unfortunately, I am not interested with them. Well, maybe I have only one heart though. Who said guys can't be loyal?! I am here to prove you wrong!

But the orientation week is damn shitty. I managed to sleep for like 2 hours everyday. Slept at around 1 plus and had to wake up at 4. And I am always the first one to the bathroom. I was quite concern about the surrounding as I believe there are some spirits in universities. So, I always look at the mirror to look around my back and the door is just beside me^^. But, when I was in my room. I am not afraid as I felt quite safe and secured but not for the crime case.

In USM, the hostel was like.....URGH! UKM is the straight winner! The campus is quite small but I can easily get lost. The structures and the surrounding are built quite far from one another.
But, I didn't see any monkey here. I mean real monkeys! People do cycle for their lecture and I cycled once using someone's bicycle. It's fun if you have bicycle and laptop here. Or else, your life will be............NOTHING! And I don't have a laptop and a bike yet, so......you got what I mean right?

I MISS UKM!!! I still remember, I moon walked once in the engineering faculty to perform for the seniors and a gal shouted for it. Yeah and she is...hehe..not bad. And I was famous as MJ there. But I will always remember that I moon walked in front ofthe special 'her'. Still she shouted. It's really very hard to put down someone that is deeply in your heart. When I was a kid, I said it's stupid and now, I am stupid for that.

So,everybody, university life is not really that bad. You gain more freedom as they treat you as an adult. Haha..I am joking right? Steamer is an adult?


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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Life is like this...

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It's very sad to know that you can't get what you have tried to get with all your might,
It's very disappointing to know that you always think of that every night,
It's very hurt to know that you have the catch but you can't have the bite,
It's very hard to become heavy if you are all the way light.



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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Still wondering...

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Everybody is studying even the under graduates. I am relaxing at home thinking of all sorts of possibilities in my life. Well, I hope all my decisions are correct and I hope I won't regret.

But, how would people look at me? I just wondered but I couldn't find the answer...

Studies above all?



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Friday, July 10, 2009

Here I come,USM!

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Sorry because I didn't have the time to update. I didn't have a laptop yet but right now I am in Penang. I will be going to USM to pursue my dream to become a mechanical engineer.Hehe...

Well, UKM is nice! YEAH! It's fun. University life is fun. But during the orientation week, I managed to sleep for only 2 to 3 hours per day. Haix.... Some didn't even get the opportunity to sleep at all. UKM only offers me microelectronic engineering as you should know that my electronics part is not that strong as my mechanics and dynamics part in physics.

SO,USM,WELCOME ME!!!


Anyway, a sad news is I just broke up. The last night in UKM is the last night for us.

First gf- I study to much and I don't have time for her....she can't understand.
Second gf- I have a financial problem and I can't go out to see her but she can't understand.


In conclusion,I am never a good guy. Sorry for both of them....


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