First Competition Match (GK)

hi!!!

Yesterday was my first ever competition match in football. It was the second match day and also the final match day in group stage. Lose and we are out! I didn't play the very first match as I usually thought that my school will produce flying keepers but when it comes to my ear, I was shocked. So I decided to give it a try since I heard that we shouldn't lose the previous match as the goal was the keeper's blunder.

When my team heard that I am playing, everyone was shocked. I see many of other teams' goalkeepers with bare hands.

Mate: Kamu pernah main?

Me: Main-main adalah...competition takda.

Mate: Itu glove lu punya ka?

Me: Ya( What the heck? Expect me to borrow one ar?)

When I first step into the field, I noticed everything shrunk. The goalpost, the field. I even noticed the center of the field is so damn near. And of course, heart pumping with extreme frequency( 200Hz? That will be the most severe heart attack)

The referee whistled at me and I didn't realise. Then he shouted ," Keeper,OK?"

I replied with a thumb up.

So, kick off. I noticed my team defended quite well. First shot comes to me and it is going to my lower right corner. I slided and palmed it away. That will be my longest slide I guess because the field was wet. I felt good that time though, still nervous.

Then 1-0. Yeah, that's the way. I don't know how but I saw the ball hit the back of the net.

Then a cross from my left. It's curling. I put my fists tight but I hesitated and decided to catch it. The hesitation costs everything. The ball slipped through my hands before I manage to hold it tight and I turned. I saw defenders flying to clear but still, someone knocked the ball in. IT WAS A STUPID BLUNDER!!!! Everyone was shocked! Even me, myself was so disappointed. How could this happen? If I palm it away, it will be a corner kick but at least, I won't concede such noob goal.

Then half time, I saw a ball coming towards me through ground. I slided again but to catch it and keep it between my arms and body but, I spilled the ball. Luckily, the last man helped me to clear. I got a cut because of the collision between me and the last man. How terrible was that?

Then, another shot towards my lower right corner.But this time, I was slightly to the left. With full stretch, GOAL!

We lost! 2-1.

I was emo-ing the whole yesterday night. I went for the concert to relax. I played and enjoyed but still, I was sad deep inside my heart. Even the feelings still haunt me when I woke up today.

I am so guilty now :(

Now, I know what is pressure and intensity. I was not well prepared psychologically for the game. I couldn't get the form and shine. It was really tense. When I heard "KEEPER!", I was extremely nervous. Playing a friendly game is much more fun. I hope this won't be my last match for competition. Futsal competition is waiting for me with I am the confirmed goalkeeper. I hope, I can handle the match tension much better. The day is next week, wish me luck and hell yeah, tests too. Training or study first?

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