Hari Test Hari Jadi...

hi!!!


Bangun awal awal pagi,
Test sudah kat sana nanti,
Makin fikir makin takda hati,
Macam mana pun kenalah pergi.

Test selepas hari jadi,
Mau enjoy pun mesti tunggu nanti,
Hanya revision , tak boleh party,
Harap harap markah bolehlah tinggi.

Test lagi selepas hari jadi,
Macam mana pun takda happy,
Fikir lagi, sedih lagi,
24 jam hanyalah boleh study.

Test habis, mood pun lari,
Answer macam mana pun tak boleh cari,
Ini macam emo la sepanjang hari,
Harap harap ang kong po pi po pi.

Apa boleh wa cakap lagi,
At least birthday cake ada orang kasi,
Ini macam selamatlah hari jadi,
Kepada wa diri sendiri...

-steam-

Left out...

hi!!!

Morning shines,
It's time to open up my eyes,
To see the world of thousand lies,
Accompanied by the flying flies.

I am one of the mice,
Hence, people won't treat me nice,
All I hope is a bowl of rice,
Day by day I am shrinking in size.

Travelling with an aching neck,
No longer the man before I got sacked,
He got jacked and I got the whack,
I covered but I left out my back.

Hair is getting longer,
Skin is getting darker,
Of course I am getting older,
For everything, I am always a loser.

Always and always a loner,

Fighting against hunger,

Hoping tomorrow will be better.
This is the life of a beggar...


-steam-

Lonely Christmas

hi!!!

From left to right,
Everything is in white,
No more scorching sunlight,
From morning til night.

Snow falls from the unreachable height,
Yet so soft and light,
Things so dull and nothing bright,
From morning til night.

Searching far across so wide,
I am not in sight,
No one by my side,
From morning til night.


-steam-

Just too tight

hi!!!

I have so many friends. The good ones and the ....bad ones?  I am so lost right now. I just need someone to talk to but, as usual, same problem goes....

It is never easy for me. With something dark from the past...

All I can tell myself is 'I am learning'. Tough moment...indeed.

This is only the beginning. But I am not ready for the next challenge yet.

Come on Steamer!


-steam-

When I was a kid...

hi!!!


Small, little steps and clumsy,
On my left there is mummy,
On my right there is daddy,
Moving forward happily.

Facing a terrible day,
I don't even need to say,
Crying all the way,
Mummy and daddy will be on their way.

All I need to count is one, two and three,
Writing big and ugly 'a', 'b' and 'c',
Life is always so damn free,
What is pretty, what is sexy?

Toys and toys,
Playing together with all the other boys,
There is no priority, there is no choice,
We had fun together with noise.

All I did were play, sleep and eat,
Mummy was always there to feed,
Daddy was always there to lead,
Only when I was a kid...


-steam-

Tensile Stress

hi!!!


Currently, TENSION!

That describes exactly the engineering undergraduates' life. I should always consider myself lucky for being one of the victims.

Everything has 2 sides. Being an undergraduate is tough. Tests and assignments are always there to haunt the students. And of course, the students or 'we' complain a lot.

However, you should always consider yourself lucky if you are an undergraduate.

Why?

1.Many are not so fortunate to have such kind of life.
2.Study smart and life is full of enjoyment.
3.Skipping classes or lectures is parts and puzzles of tertiary life.
4.Holidays!
5.There is no such thing as RETRENCHMENT!


Can we do that during work?


Since the mid sem break ends tomorrow, here is something for everybody going back to their universities.

Don't give others burden and load,
No matter you are a ship or boat,
Always switch on the cautious mode,
Always be careful especially on the road.



-steam-

The passive season...

hi!!!

I am not an outgoing guy as I used to be. Currently, I like to stay inside my room. Well, I guess, I can consider myself a busy man with me facing a book everyday. Of course, not only Facebook XD. What I mean is the book that can be flipped and the aura of stress coming out whenever it is flipped.

Raining season and it encourages me to stay inside my room more often with no football.It's been for A MONTH! Moreover I saw videos of goalkeeping and I am so eager to try them out. I guess all I can do is to wait and to face the book of stress.

Seriously, I am craving for cheese cake. Secret Recipe is the place but I didn't go. I had thought of asking people to join but in the end, I just brushed it off before I open my mouth. It's been quite frequent as I know something is missing. That very something...


-steam-

Some Air Grasped

hi!!!

Finally, I can grasp some fresh air. Still busy but not that busy as past few days where quiz, tests and lab reports came in one shot. The tests were like...thousands of sighs. Mechatronics was really bad. Solid mechanics was not that bad but still not that good as I hoped for it because I only figured out that I made careless mistake during the test when I was on the way to lunch after the tests. I guess I think a lot when I drive. I know it's dangerous but this is me. Thinking is my hobby which I don't really want to. By watching a simple movie I will think of what happens next. I just like this kind of prediction and I think super much before I doze off.

'What I did today? What did I do wrong? Should I do that? What should I do tomorrow? What should I study? Will I do well?Bla bla....'

3 more tests are awaiting me and I hope I can do well. Of course, without any silly mistake! I am so keen to join the football squad selection but there are several setbacks for me.

1. Time consuming
2. Am I really qualified?
3. Raining!!!!!!

Well, I guess this is brief enough to tell the current life of mine. Here's some of the add ons if it's too brief XD

I got this kind of  waking up early habit since last few weeks. There were two times which I woke up an hour earlier than the set time. I was so damn blur which I thought it's already time to get up and get ready for lectures. So I prepared myself for lectures and realised that after I reached the destination which was an empty room with total darkness. Well, getting up early is good as I can have my healthy breakfast at cafe nearby. I cycled to cafe every morning (weekdays ONLY) for the past few weeks. This is totally amazing as I was late to lectures quite frequent during my last semester. And one more, I also practise sleeping early (before 12 and usually 11 plus). For weekends, I usually wake up around 9 and latest 1030 (once).

Actually, this was one of my almost impossible missions because I used to sleep until late morning and sometimes noon last time.

So, what else? Satisfied? INDEED!



-steam-

Middle?

hi!!!

The feeling's still with me. The 'if' is always haunting me. Days passed but I still wonder about it but I know it's useless to wonder only 'if'.

If I stand in the middle, will everything change?

-steam-

Another encounter...

hi!!!

Another encounter of futsal competition. This time it only involves the school of mechanical and aerospace engineering only. Moreover it is free. It's a MUST to join.

I went there with some striking colour on my clothes and as usual, I stood in between the posts. I 'accidentally' attracted the attention of everybody with the striking colour. That made me extra nervous and cameras were looking at me. Then, I thought of going into the match after the speech because my team was competiting the first match. Anyhow, 'BOOOOOM'!! "Mali mali MAKAN!!"

What the hell?! I needed to wait for them to eat. Then, the time had come. I was so eager to stand between the posts restricting anything to get past me EVEN FLIES!!!!

Match started and I was in my half sitting position as usual. I was so damn nervous until there was a time where the ball was bouncing slowly towards me. I should've caught it with firm grip EASILY but I DIDN'T! It passed me. Fortunately, a nice clearance from 'I don't know who' ( I was shocked). Unfortunately, I got jeered by the audience beside. Quite a number of people were there. Another higher level of tension was built.

Second half came without any break. Then, I was lucky to save one which the crowd cheered. YEAH! That's what I wanted as my confidence level was boosted like a sky high rocket. Then 0-0. Penalties shoot-out and we lost. The last shot was really really unforgettable.

"AH KEAT! U CAN!! DON'T SCARED" (in hokkien) and then, GOAL!

Some of the comments and shouting are still in my head.

" Lu orang main main ka? Main defend.."
" Counter!!!HAR HAR HAR!!!SHOOT!"
"Waaaa...ini budak cina boleh main lo..."
"lu orang selalu defend tunggu seri.."
"Keeper!! steady steady..."   ( I like this the most and I replied with a thumb up XD)

Those were from the technicians and staffs of the mech school behind my posts. I really appreciate their support. I hereby thank my mates and the crowd that cheered and also jeered me XD.

This was the best atmosphere I have as a goalkeeper!

I am not a good loser as I emo-ed after the match :(

-steam-

The Third Week onwards...

hi!!!

Life's getting hectic and I begin to miss the 4 months break. Although I didn't really have a holiday during that 4 months, at least life isn't that hectic. I just went there to talk and play. But, sometimes that kind of life is boring. So what do I really want actually? A REAL HOLIDAY! I finished most of my assignments and left only 2 to go. I have another day tomorrow to finish them or at least one of them.

Next week is getting more hectic as I predict more assignments are coming up and competition in between of them. Sometimes, I feel a bit guilty joining the competition as it eats up my time. Although it is held on the evening, I won't be able to study at night at the optimum pace as it will surely tire me down. And another problem, more clothes for me to wash. Anyhow, I should feel lucky to be in this kind of life. Many are unfortunate being unable to step into the life of varsity.

20 units full for this semester is something not easy especially when it is near to finals. I am still wondering about the outcome. Will I do better, maintain or flop to the bottom? If I flop, how is the door to the graduation? Closed tight or still open but without the light? I planned to watch at least a movie today but in the end, I watched only for 10 minutes. The guilt is always there haunting me.

Life is really different for the current semester. I have to cut down my precious footballing time. Am I being too nerdy? Of course, I really wish to hit my target after failing for four consecutive times. But so far, copying assignments are less likely for me and I am very happy to see such tremendous change in me. I hope I will continue this excellent run and excel in the end. It sounds a bit too ambitious but it's good, right? XD

By the way, more and more compliments about me being endao. Keep'em coming!



-steam-

Another Broken Heart

hi!!!

So many words for the broken heart,
Life is never easy and it's always hard,
And yet, love is the crucial part,
Always bitter sweet no matter what.

Heart is shattered,
Love has turned into hatred,
Away it goes, but long time faded,
This is what I got with the time wasted.

You left me with darkness and pain,
Because of you I almost got insane,
You also left me with the clouds and rain,
Also with the memories down the lane...

"Inspired by someone with broken heart"

-steam-

Another New Breath for the 3rd Time...

hi!!!

Second week of my third year as an undergraduate has passed with.....Well, too much to say about it. So, take your time and ENJOY!

When I left my home to face another interesting and yet complicated challenge, my heart felt so heavy. The density got up. Maybe, it was because of the 4 months break given. Well, life is life and I still have to live with the challenges, at least this one is interesting XD

I miss my friends there especially the one currently in Australia. Life there is different without him ( I know this sounds a bit gay) Cut the gayness and proceed...

I was all alone in my room for the first week. It was so damn quiet and peaceful as if I was in the library for a week. Of course, without the air conditioning. For my previous two years, I procrastinated but quite unlikely for my previous semester. And, what did I get? The highest pointer in my tertiary life SO FAR for my previous sem(but not good enough as I ALMOST hit my target). So, another fresh start without procrastination is what I am aiming for right now! This semester is all about studies and theories. So, I MUST HIT MY TARGET THIS SEM!!! (Hopefully)

Then, second week came with just a blink of eyes. I still continue my 'nerdy' life but of course, with a few hours of entertainment and sports. YES, SPORTS! So that I can build up my body....to protect my girlfriend. Errr...anyone? It's ok to say no but I advise you not to regret ( only applies to female reader).

But, some went unexpected and it was never in my plan. INJURY! I just injured my left hand yesterday and I feel pain whenever I hold with my left hand. It got worse as I saw a poster about futsal competition which starts next week :( . I registered of course and hopefully, no one get pass me! But, I need my hand to recover first of course. Oh god, please popi popi.

And I am very handsome as usual.

-steam-

The real holiday begins...

hi!!!

Finally I am done with working but still, money is not enough. 4 months of hard work seems to turn out so little. I went shopping and I am poor again. Very very poor indeed. Money is always too easy to be spent and extra hard to earn. When will the rich Steamer exist? Sooner,later or never?

There are only 2 possibilities for someone being so poor. Spent too much or earn too little. I still couldn't figure out which one is mine. I hope you can figure it out if you consider yourself poor enough.

Let's talk something happier. I have my holiday!!!! YAHOO! Although it's only a week plus, at least I can really enjoy the relaxing life before the hectic one begins.

4 months of hibernation for my brain and I am going to use it again. I hope nothing got stuck and no lubrication is required. Well, hopefully...I can only hope for now...

-steam-

The wait, the hope...

hi!!!

Far across the land,

Farms,animals and men,

One more year to ten,

I am still waiting for my man.

I'd rejected many,

Although I am never happy,

What's the matter with me?

All of because of my hubby.

He left everything to go to the city,

With the hope of earning more money,

I hope one day he will come back to me,

And still, be so lovely...

-steam-

$$$

hi!!!

I was in holiday from blogging for a while. Wasn't in the mood to blog and I really got no inspiration at all. What the hell! Anyway, this is just another empty post. Currently, money is so damn important to me. Thought of so much to spend and, GOD OF WEALTH, come to me PLEASE!

No money really NO good AR!!!

-steam-

Shogun 2

hi!!!

I am back and the blog is still breathing.

I was busy completing a game known as Total War : Shogun 2. I guess I am back to my gaming life. I used to be an intensive gamer which didn't bathe for few days (when I was small of course). I can't upload the picture here as error occurs. So to any gamer, try the game. It's nice and it needs a lot of planning and thinking. Some sort like chess and patience is really virtue. I took one month plus just to finish a campaign and there many more left.

The game is to become the shogun(lord) of Japan by conquering provinces. As usual, diplomatics gameplay exists which means the lesser the enemy, the better. Ninjas and geishas are available.

More to be discovered...

So, time for war!

-steam-

Happy Anniversary

hi!!!

We have been together for a year,

Without dripping a single tear,

I am your darling and you are my dear,

Sometimes we are far apart but our hearts are always near.

For evey wrong doing I am sorry,

Everytime you forgive and I am happy,

You did wait when I was busy,

If you didn't I don't know what would I be.

Among the sand, you are the pearl,

I can't believe this is so real,

As you are my only girl,

And also everything of my world.

The words can't fully express the love from me,

I hope you know and you can see,

Our love, we hope for eternity,

And I am looking forward for our second anniversary...

-steam-

3 Seasons

hi!!!

Morning bells were ringing,

While the flowers were blooming,

Little birds were singing,

Gigantic tress were dancing.

The eye of the sky became brighter,

As the weather was getting hotter,

The eye was observing longer,

To show off the theme of summer.

All alone at the waterfall,

During the best season of all,

I was still waiting for the call,

When permission was granted for the leaves to fall.

It all happened in just a day,

And it all happened in the colour of grey,

My heart is still here for you to take away,

And I've been waiting since yesterday...

-steam-

I am Free

hi!!!

The very moment you left me,

I didn't really know what would I be,

I was blind and I couldn't see,

Smiles from me but I was not happy.

The world was in darkness,

Only you could come in first,

I took this as a curse,

As I could never ever be your nurse.

You stole away my purse,

And you made my heart burst,

No more money to quench the thirst,

You were the best but also the worst.

I am a bird standing on a tree,

Chirping and singing happily,

I am grateful that you left me,

As I am finally set free.

Eyes opened and I can see,

In the mirror,I see a blooming lily,

Looking for a cup of tea,

Hopefully it comes with sweet honey...

-steam-

Cry

hi!!!

I kept on wondering why,

As I saw you sobbing with sigh,

I looked up at the blue sky,

And I noticed it was no longer that high.

All the birds stopped to fly,

As I questioned you with why,

Smiles were the only answer you reply,

As I knew you were trying to lie.

I kept on finding out why,

To find the answers lie inside your eye,

Because of you, I will always try,

Even till the day I die.

I hope I can be wiser,

So that I can understand you deeper,

And of course, to see you clearer,

And also to bring us closer.

Inside your heart, I am never a winner,

I can sacrifice everything just to be your lover,

I know I can't make you feel better,

If you need to cry, please cry on my shoulder...

-steam-

Eat

hi!!!

Just consumed 8 slices of bread with 2 half boiled eggs and a cup of yogurt ^^

4 months at home gonna a paradise for me although I am packed with my part time job. Hoping to gain weight soon ^^

God bless me :)

-steam-

The Korean Girl

hi!!!

It all happened in the month of May,

A sweet memory that's sad to say,

It all started on a beautiful Monday,

Unfortunately, it ended in a sudden way.

Drizzles under the clouds in grey,

We missed the sun rise of the day,

Fortunately, we had fun during the play,

Laughters of hers are enough to make my day.

Days spent up the hill,

Every meal was the sweetest meal,

Nobody knows how did I feel,

When we got up the Ferris Wheel.

How I wish to see her in skirt,

To express her beauty, not a single word,

I wondered whenever she was quiet,

Still wondering and I am disappointed.

She told me the story of a bird,

In the end, she made it hurt,

Opportunities came but all wasted,

She's good at throwing at the basket.

Love can't make me calm,

And of course, my heart was heavily pumped,

I thought we bumped,

Actually, I don't even have the chance to be dumped.

She went back to her island,

And I am here in England,

Her love is very hard to earn,

Stealing her heart, still a lot to learn...

-steam-

Colourful Dream

hi!!!

I see flowers with green trees,

Being slowly blown by the summer breeze,

Everything lives together in peace,

Covered partially by the glowing mist.

I open my eyes to receive your morning kiss,

Everything in the world seems to cease,

With you around the world stops to tease,

The scorching hot sun starts to freeze.

You will never again fall sick,

Whatever you do I will surely mark you a tick,

Happiness will always stay higher than the peak,

As you will always find me romantic.

No more work and only play,

We understand each other without a single say,

White clouds without a single grey,

A nice weather of a wonderful day.

Enjoying the sip of wine,

Looking at the seven colours of the line,

Everything seems too fine,

Because it's only a dream of mine...

-steam-

Submerged

hi!!!

A submarine submerged into the sea,

Nobody can judge with only eyes to see,

Something happens miraculously,

Til today, there is no new discovery.

Sea can never be shallow,

Life will never be hollow,

Sometimes Jack is forced to follow,

Something about Jack no one will ever know.

No choice, they gotta lay low,

They have only time to borrow,

Living together deep down below,

Together with eternity sorrow...

-steam-

Fishing...

hi!!!

Fishing in a pile of mud,

Oil has turned into lat,

Leaving with only an empty cart,

Going back with a broken heart.

Giving up on the fish,

No more fish on the dish,

That's never a wish,

Hope is forever perished...

-steam-

Life of Peperiksaan

hi!!!

Satu hari sebelum periksa,

Merupakan hari yang paling susah,

Pagi malam pun mau baca,

Tidok malam pun tak lena.

Makan apa pun takda rasa,

Buat apa pun tak lancar,

Jadi millionaire pun takda makna,

Manyak lucky kalau tak jadi gila.

Hari periksa hari yang dinanti,

Bangun pun awal-awal pagi,

Belum pun sempat gosok gigi,

Sudah pun kat meja buat study.

Orang pandai-pandai semuanya steady,

Periksa apa pun aim tinggi-tinggi,

Setiap soalan, answer pasti cari,

Buat habis pun sempat check lagi.

Orang kurang pandai pula semuanya belum ready,

Periksa apa pun harap jangan mati,

Tengok soalan pun sudah takda hati,

Kasi tau lecturer, tahun depan jumpa lagi.

Periksa habis, semuanya manyak free,

Siang malam pun pergi happy,

Ada laki pakai handsome, pompuan pula sexy,

Malam-malam enjoy kat party.

Exam result semuanya worry,

Buat pahala harap ang kong po pi po pi,

Ada sedih ada yang happy,

Unfortunately, kitar ini akan ulang lagi...

-steam-

Secret's Recipe

hi!!!

Secrets everywhere,

Sometimes they bring nightmare,

Sometimes they need eye wear,

No matter what, they always need people to care.

Sometimes they may look like a teddy bear,

And somehow they are so cute like a hare,

Sometimes they bring crack and tear,

For sure, it is very hard to bare.

They are no more themselves if exposed to the air,

Everything comes with a price or fare,

Some expensive and it is never fair,

Secrets into the graveyard are very rare...

-steam-

Qualified?

hi!!!

I can sense that the coming days are going to be tough. Examinations and I haven't really master each of the subject and at the same time, decisions to be made. Decisions that can change my life. Considerations after considerations but still, no conclusion at all.

Achieving a dream means a lot to do. Sacrifices everywhere but there is no guarantee for success. I am currently stuck at the middle of the diverged road. Choices and considerations and no guideline. Mood swings everytime I think of it. Well, maybe 'them'. Will I ever succeed in my coming examinations with my current pathetic situation? I am so damn ruined!

But one more thing, am I really qualified? I received some setbacks because of planning to go for the small achievement. So, decisions of life? Is it the time? Time is running out. I don't have much time left to be so emotional thinking of the choices. Even, sometimes I feel like I talk too much. Maybe most of the time. Yeah, I know I am annoying sometimes. I can't spend much time here and I really need to study soon.

Since I am destined to be in this situation,

Ang kong popi popi...

-steam-

Stangers Again...

hi!!!

We met up at the park,

That was the time we ignited the spark,

Whether it was just a matter of fate or luck,

It would definitely leave a mark.

You were so beautiful and I was so amazed,

Opportunities came, I would hang around your waist,

I hoped for the right time and the right place,

To get into the race, to go for the chase.

Things got off with flirts,

Everything seemed so right and nothing could go worse,

We became love birds,

Just because of a couple of simple words.

Things started to hurt,

As we began to take each other for granted,

Hearts started to get shattered,

Pathway seemed to be divided.

Love became ill,

That's the time we're going downhill,

No more love and no more feel,

As things started to get real.

Hearts grew apart,

Everything ended with a 'but',

Life began to get hard,

It's time to think back about the start.

It's time to change for the better,

It's time to try even harder,

But sooner or later,

We will either keep it together or we will hate each other.

No more sunshine, we see rain,

Journey ended and what did we gain?

The stage of breaking up, the stage of pain,

Will we ever be strangers again?

I am sorry,

You won't be my wife,

But I am thankful,

As you were the most important person in my life...

-steam-

Another Sleepless Night

hi!!!

A cup of Teh O Peng during dinner and it happened once again. I went to bed at 1 plus and finally slept at somewhere around 4.

I started to wonder why couldn't I sleep when the clock struck 230am. Then it came to my mind. ICED TEA! But after sleeping, I woke up when it was 15mins before 7. What the heck! I was so steam but I really had to wake up and walk for around 30 steps just to get back to sleep. Sleep walking huh? I've told you I had already woke up! A simple reason, toilet :(

Woke up at 12 and what a day without morning...

-steam-

Study Week

hi!!!

It's been days since my study week started and of course, I have started studying. But besides studying, I did other stuffs especially reading articles. I read a lot as you know, sometimes when you get bored after hours of studying, you need to relax yourself.

I went to Secret Recipe and the cake was so damn NICE! I wonder if I can still have cheesecakes from S.R during my birthday :P.

Well, let's go back to the articles. I read a lot of funny articles. One of them said that, when someone put his foot over to your cubicle in the washroom, changing room, mushroom... MUSHROOM?! beware as it signals something about....that thing la!

And a very successful founder of a telecast got expelled from university just because he kept a lady in his room. What the heck?! Wanna know who? It's better not to know as I know you wouldn't want people to know if he was you.

A member of parliament watched pornography during parliamentary session. What I mean is foreign country punya la!

Sometimes, we get to search all the weird stuffs online when we have nothing better to do besides studying. That's why we, STUDENT CAN'T LIVE OFFLINE!

But one thing that I am amazed is,.... WHAT?!! I haven't flirt for a really long time. That's why I always wonder that something is missing from my life ^^.

-steam-

Cooler!!!

hi!!!

Weather is getting cooler. Everything is getting cooler. Let's just put global warming aside, will ya?!

Of course, my laptop is getting cooler. Why? Lappie got a cooler fan? If that's your answer, that's right but not that right. CUT THE CRAP!

I noticed my laptop cooler is not running well. It has internal bleeding. o.0?

Its wire was disconnected inside and that's why sometimes it runs and sometimes not.

So, I decided to change everything! MUAHAHAHAHA!!

What a MESS!!

Ta DA~~~~~~~~

It doesn't look nice but as long it does its job, I am done with it ^^.

It took me 2 hours to finish this. I know it's so simple but accidents happen in between and I have to cut the wire all over again and again~~~.

But at least I managed to save my RM10. Stingy huh?

-steam-

Annoyed :(

hi!!!

For those who knows how I behave, I am never serious. Laughters everywhere, anytime. But whenever I am serious, people think that I am joking. Well, I don't mean everytime but most of the time. This is sometimes annoying. Do you know that how annoying it is when you are so serious telling something but others just brush you off? Sometimes I just stop and ... well, there is nothing I can do. Expect me to beg them to believe in me? Joking right? It's very hard to mix extremely well with me as I can only tolerate a few times and not everytime if something is not going my way. I have my limits and I know I will be in trouble if I am over my limits.

I even quarreled with my teachers before and I know it's very wrong in doing so. They have all the rights and the school is protecting them. They are just like my authorities. Approving every single answer of mine in the test. Slight mistake and they may be bias. Of course, we are human and we are from all different kinds. Some will follow emotions and some won't.

Borned with a baby face and everybody will hesitate a while in giving me a heavy responsibility. I just don't understand why. Although it's a give from the god and compliments of me being cute. I just hope to face the society one day which people believe in me and hand me something with 100% trust.

A lot of people criticised me and many teased me. I am okay and I take the teasing as jokes. But of course, I have the limits. Whenever I warn them, people thought I am joking. Until the moment when I show aggressiveness, they will stop to wonder. I will be very bad if I am angry. Doing the crazy stuffs hurting others. And then, I have to say sorry. If I am unlucky, scars will be in the hearts. For the worse case, deep down inside the hearts. I know I am small but that doesn't mean I don't dare to fight! I just hope myself to pass the EQ test of mine by being patient controlling my temper. Another annoying stuff, being criticised even I am doing the right thing.

I have a lot of tests for myself. And I know you too. If you don't have, just make some to improve yourself and for your future sake although 2012 is coming.

-steam-

Angry...

hi!!!

Trying to console me? No use as I am not currently angry ^^

But anyway, I easily got angry these few days. Slightly annoying stuff and I am off to blast! Well, some of you may think of the monthly call. Well, maybe...who knows? Stress? Well, I have to learn to cool myself down to prevent any bloodshed. BLOODSHED???!!And Steamer gonna steam up your blood...muahahahaha!!!

-steam-

Sleepless night...

hi!!!

I still miss her although it has been a year,

Sometimes I think of her and I couldn't resist my tear,

I still have her in my memories, so clear,

And why did she leave me without my only dear?

I wish I could have her in my sight,

She is always my choice no matter black or white,

And again,I hope to hold her tight,

To be with me during my sleepless night.

I wonder how is she doing,

When she doesn't realise that I am suffering,

Will she ever care if she is still the one I think,

Or she will never care even I am no longer a human being?

-steam-

I see white!

hi!!!

It strikes again...It will never end...

This morning, a severe stomachache caused me to wake up. While walking to the toilet, the headache is killing me. The headache was getting worse and worse for every steps I took, until the final stage, where everything started to turn white through my eyes. I was so scared of fainting. Imagine when no one is around and you fainted in the toilet when everybody is fast asleep.

Then, I walked back to my room and I saw my roommate waking up preparing to go for the McD breakfast promotion. The feeling of severe stomachache was still there. I lied down and then, I opened my eyes, going to the toilet once again to settle the business. I didn't even know whether did I sleep or it was a moment of lying on the bed. This time, the headache was not that severe anymore.

I went back to my room noticing my roommate was gone. I wanted to leave a notice for the rest of the other 2 and I noticed another one was gone too. The notice of telling him I am sick and help to do whatever it's necessary in the class ^^.

Luckily I didn't join my friends for the McD breakfast as with this condition, I wouldn't make it. I guess I got this from lacking of sleep. Well, it's only my guess.

Then, I went back to sleep to get more rest and someone knocked the door. WHAT THE HELL!!

I opened the door and that person was looking for my missing roommate. I went back to sleep and woke up at 12! What a waste of time! But fortunately, everything seems to be okay and I got a set of Big Breakfast on my table. What a lovely roommate for that. Actually, the headache is still haunting me but it's just very light.

But what I had in mind during that 'critical' time was, ' Is there a test today? Anything important?' Well, I guess I care about the tests more than myself. Shhhh....don't tell my mum. Please!!

-steam-

Response!

hi!!!

Well, here are my second and third pair of gloves.

My second gloves. It looks dirty but I have already washed it T.T
The older type of Adidas Response.

My latest glove. Same model with the second one but different colour and more 'yeng'.

The newer release of Adidas Response. But I bought this one cheaper by Rm10 when the older one is out of stock.

What can I say? First and foremost I like the dynamic cut which fits my hands excellently. Next, it has rubber which covers my whole hand except for my thumb. Well, they for for training purposes on as you can see the word 'Training' on the wrist strap. But anyhow, the real glove costs much more expensive than this and it's very rare in the store. I saw once which cost Rm300 plus. This suits me financially. Besides that, it is recommended for amature goalkeeper. Well, I know the word amature doesn't sound so good rather than professional. But, I am not a professional and I am not from a rich family.

So, for normal playing, second gloves!
Competition, latest one la of course!

I do really appreciate if someone gives me Adidas Response gloves as present n^^V

For most of the people, a goalkeeper needs glove to perform better. Well, it is only true if the gloves suit the keeper. And, I saw some goalkeeper with gloves but they were not so daring to do flying stunts or even simple ground stretch. It defeats the purpose of being a goalkeeper even though with the best gloves. I admit I injured many times because of this so called 'stupid' stunt but I still love standing between the post. Of course, it's my passion ^^.

Don't get me wrong. I am not trying to say I am good at the stunts and of course I sometimes made mistakes. Well, can I say I am better than a layman but incomparable with a real goalkeeper? Gloves are just to assist a goalkeeper as they are shock absorber and better grip provider ( if gloves are clean).

Sometimes being a goalkeeper is rather boring if your defense is pretty strong and secured. All I did was stand and watch. But if defense is lacking, goalkeeper must be really hardworking, baby!

In conclusion, goalkeeper is USELESS if the team is really strong in defense.

'To become a true goalkeeper, one must not have fear of pain and must be alert with fast response.

Go for the stunts first before trying to own a set of gloves.'

Steaming goalkeeper

-steam-

Trust

hi!!!

I noticed that trust is very important. I like people to trust me and so do you but I can hardly make it successful ><.

Noticing most of the people hardly trust me in what I do. Sometimes, I just said something so seriously but they thought I was joking. Well maybe I am too playful until whatever comes out from my mouth will be nonsense. And of course, I hardly trust people back. This is me. If you wanna know my secret, point a gun at my head and I will tell you, but only half of it o.0'''

It was a friend of mine that changed my personality. I remember it all happened when I was 16. He blew my secret and I told my self not to reveal any of my secret since that very moment. Even if you are the closest one to me, you have to find out yourself what am I actually hiding from you. And because of this, nobody wanna be close to me T.T . Izit?

Don't you think it's so sweet that people understand you so deeply until they know what are you thinking and you don't have to tell them at all?

Sweet right? BULLSHIT!

It's f***ing dangerous to have such people around. There is no more room for privacy. If you want people to invade your privacy, then go ahead @.@

So,what should I do? Trust people more or make them trust me more?

Trust people more? Hehe..I am very stubborn, honestly.

Seriously, to everybody especially you, I wanna sincerely apologize if I ever didn't trust you and I think it will happen again. Forget me if you want me to trust you more than anyone else.

-steam-

Mr.Emo

hi!!!

One word.

EMO!

-steam-

Romeo And Juliet :(

hi!!!

There was a girl, Juliet with her boyfriend, Romeo.

They were happy couple until that day. Which day?

It was a beautiful Monday morning.

Romeo was working in his office. Juliet came in and told him she misses him.

Romeo was shocked to see his girlfriend. Anyhow, he was writing a message " I love you" to another lady.

Juliet dropped a pencil from his table. She picked up the pencil but she glanced at his phone noticing the message was for another lady.

She was angry. She scolded Romeo and left him. Romeo was so sad as he was dumped by Juliet. He couldn't withstand the loneliness at all. Anyhow, his "I love you" message was for his mother. He then committed suicide as he was too sad. Juliet then killed herself too as she felt regret breaking up with Romeo.

The moral of the story is : Don't ever drop a pencil especially on Monday morning!

-steam-

My English Sucks!

hi!!!

My english is terrible nowadays.

The statement above is free from mistake? Nope? Don't know?

I've told you that my English is terrible nowadays. So, of course there is mistake...LA!

-steam-

Respect

hi!!!

Nobody left me unpack,

As everyone looks down upon me from every aspect,

Whenever there is disease, I am the plague,

I don't even have any respect.

No matter how high, nobody will even look at my flag,

It doesn't even matter whether it is made from silk or just a rag,

Obstacles every where and I need to go zig-zag,

But anyhow, I still can't manage to find my respect.

I am the first one to get sacked,

Also the first one to get nagged,

This happens whenever there is a lag,

As I don't even own any respect.

I easily got hacked,

Also easily get cracked,

This is really a fact,

Of a guy without any respect...

-steam-

I am not a good fren...

hi!!!

Mistake by mistake...

What a week of mine.

I helped my friends before and I am sure everyone of you did the same. But, some will be left out, right? If you feel that I am wrong, then I am sorry that you never realise who did you left out.

Well, I just left out someone who had helped me quite a lot in my past. I would like to help him but I need to help myself too. I can only help one right now. Am I really selfish? No? I know you are joking, baby!

The miserable week of mine is going to end soon. I hope the new week will be much more better than this. I am sorry and please forgive me for all the wrong things I ever did to all of you.

If you can't forgive me, just forget me.

-steam-

有点疯的人

hi!!!

如果你的朋友有点疯，请好好珍惜！

有点疯的人性格很奇怪,有时候超爱说话,有时候可以一天不说话的时候,会拼命的说话,不高兴的时候,一句话也不说；

有点疯的人不爱记仇,但谁对他好谁对他不好,他还是记得很清楚的；

有点疯的人把真实的自己藏于半夜的寂静和午夜明朗的笑声中；

有点疯的人最注重的就是安全感.希望被保护,却常常是一个人；

有点疯的人不容易爱上一个人，但一旦爱上便很难自拔。一旦受伤，总是被伤的很深。只有几个贴心朋友；

有点疯的人是个很爱撒娇的孩子、总是很依赖别人；

有点疯的人喜欢海,喜欢顾影自怜.喜欢自己舔伤口；

有点疯的人性格很古怪而又孤僻,他们会突然在大笑中沉默,感觉悲伤；

有点疯的人心里想什么从来不说.别人也猜不到；

有点疯的人嘴上说不在乎、心里却早已悲凉、心里的那把火早已熄灭；

有点疯的人选择了沉默、不在像以前那样挚热的去追求某样东西；

有点疯的人总是很爱回忆、回忆以前的点点滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想着；

有点疯的人天生敏锐，与生具备的第六感，对人的内心有超乎寻常的洞察力，但他会把这些东西放在心里；

有点疯的人可以把你的眼神、内心看得很清楚，但却不会告诉你，他用旁观的态度判定虚伪；

有点疯的人不懂甜言蜜语，不屑拍马屁；

有点疯的人本能的排斥虚伪和做作的人；

有点疯的人不会真的发火，就算生气，也很快忘记！

有点疯的人只对真正懂他的人，展示他的创造性，他的情绪他变得冷淡就证明他开始对你重新审视，当他越是沉默，就代表他越是生气；

有点疯的人可能看起来很凶，其实内心是最柔软的；

有点疯的人看起来很冷淡，但那只是保护自己的方法；

有点疯的人很重视友情，但被伤害后绝对不再友善；

有点疯的人很容易被感动，但感动中又保有理智；

有点疯的人可能看起来很坚强，其实是最脆弱的；

有点疯的人可能很爱哭，但他的哭并不代表认输；

有点疯的人可能看起来很笨，其实大智若愚；

有点疯的人可能做事很毛躁，但内心很细心；

有点疯的人天生敏感和细腻，却会用心鉴定；

有点疯的人懦弱，受了伤之后，只知道躲在无人的地方独自哭泣；

有点疯的人虚伪，明明已经心痛到无法呼吸，还要在最爱的他面前假装坚强；不轻易让任何人走进他自己独自的世界；

有点疯的人的笑容，无论开心或者悲伤，他都是一脸笑容，笑容，是他们伪装自己最好的武器；

有点疯的人的眼泪，从不轻易让人看见，他的泪，从来只有她知道，

只是，谁又知道，在有点脑残的人笑脸背后，埋藏的是深深的悲伤，笑的越开心，伤的越深；

有点疯的人的退缩，有点脑残的人，永远不会轻易说爱或者喜欢，除非真的喜欢到了极点，否则，要他们表白几乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，他们就是不遗余力的付出，即使知道这样做换来的结果可能是深深的伤害…

有点疯的人，永远只可能做同一件事两次，表白也一样，同一个人，只可能听到他向你最深的表白两次，两次之后，就是绝对的安静了…即使仍然深爱着，他也没有勇气再说第三遍我爱你…他的退缩，不能重复一件事第三次；

有点疯的人愚蠢，不懂的怎么挽回深爱的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈祷。

受了伤的有点疯的人，只会在角落独自忍受锥心的痛。

有点疯的人的：体贴第一名，爱吃第一名，爱家第一名，孝顺第一名，多愁善感第一名。

如果你爱上有点疯的人…请你疼爱有点疯的人。

但是我不是有点疯的人，我是很疯的人！！！

-steam-

Steamer oh Steamer

hi!!!

Steamer is currently steaming... with problems of course. Maybe the problems without solution. What am I going to do? Continue steaming? Ignore them?

I know what you are thinking. Seek for solution right? How smart... Do you mind reading again? The problems are not meant for any solution. I am not a good person although I really look like one. I know you doubt me but if you really take a clear look at my face, you will notice a very very fair and cute face with sparkling eyes. Well, that's why girls fall for me. ^^

Do you feel like I am showing off? Well, if yes, this means that you are jealous! Try to agree with my statement.

Although sometimes I may look really bad, but that's not all. I have more to be revealed.

Steamer is a good person? Think again!

-steam-

I am never good enough...

hi!!!

I have finally noticed a huge mistake of mine. I don't really consider it mistake I guess. I think It's better to say it as a weakness of mine. Of course, I won't reveal my newly discovered weakness to anybody. And whoever that does that, I SALUTE U!

What a shame to realise this at such time. Because of this, I did the wrong thing...I said the wrong words! I am so angry at myself.

I feel really uneasy keeping this all to myself. But, this is what I am going to do until... the day comes. Well, a really good day to be enjoyed as I just had my MECH NIGHT 2011 but it is also a day full of discoveries and lessons. How could this happen? It's never right!

If I continue to be like this, I am sure I won't be able to enjoy my life. This takes time. But I also hope for the faster approach of solution.

-steam-

HUAT AH!!!

hi!!!

Wishing everybody a happy Chinese New Year...

大家兔然发财！！

HUAT AH!!!

-steam-

How will it be if we ever meet again?

hi!!!

We walked around the turf,

With flowers blooming with love,

No more pain without a single nerve,

With two opened hearts for us to surf.

I was breaking free,

For you to reach for me,

I was your cup of coffee and you were my cup of tea,

We were everything for us to see.

When I see you smile,

You'll make me wonder for awhile,

I have had been thinking for a mile,

There is still no answer just how.

The road had finally diverged into two,

Leaving only the sign board without any clue,

I walked over the thorns without wearing any shoe,

The pain is there but I am still thinking of you.

I was once coloured by your paint,

I was once made insane,

I was once your sun and rain,

How will it be if we ever meet again?

-steam-

2011

hi!!!

First and foremost, let's welcome the year 2011 and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Sorry for being 'not so active' anymore because of examinations. I know you can say I have sem-break but I was working and mostly 10 hours per day. Well, let us just forgive and forget about others wrong doing (especially mine) to welcome this very new year ( not that new anymore I guess...)

I wonder how will it gonna be next year... 2012 is awaiting. Professors and scientists did mention that 2012 is D-day! Well, and surprisingly, the world gonna end on my birthday! Is that a joke? Imagine singing a birthday song half way and buildings collapse. And the cake is for display only.

Well, I hope you still remember my birthday. Forgotten? *sobbing*

Okay! Let's talk about my previous semester. I did quite well and I am quite happy except for one. I got a D- in one of my subjects. The rest....not bad ^^ The semester with most A's ^^ But a D- drag my CGPA down to hell. Anyway, it's still above 3. Thanks to those 'Apples'. So, actually, my new year resolution is to..................................... Hehehe... ^^v

It's rainy season and it's also flooding season. Today, the whole campus got flooded. I guess there won't be any goalkeeping for me this week. No more flying and diving here and there.

I am gonna tell you YOUR resolution this year as I know many of you will surely forget this special resolution.

STEAM MORE!

Everybody, Happy New Year and Steam MORE!

-steam-