Annoyed :(

hi!!!

For those who knows how I behave, I am never serious. Laughters everywhere, anytime. But whenever I am serious, people think that I am joking. Well, I don't mean everytime but most of the time. This is sometimes annoying. Do you know that how annoying it is when you are so serious telling something but others just brush you off? Sometimes I just stop and ... well, there is nothing I can do. Expect me to beg them to believe in me? Joking right? It's very hard to mix extremely well with me as I can only tolerate a few times and not everytime if something is not going my way. I have my limits and I know I will be in trouble if I am over my limits.

I even quarreled with my teachers before and I know it's very wrong in doing so. They have all the rights and the school is protecting them. They are just like my authorities. Approving every single answer of mine in the test. Slight mistake and they may be bias. Of course, we are human and we are from all different kinds. Some will follow emotions and some won't.

Borned with a baby face and everybody will hesitate a while in giving me a heavy responsibility. I just don't understand why. Although it's a give from the god and compliments of me being cute. I just hope to face the society one day which people believe in me and hand me something with 100% trust.

A lot of people criticised me and many teased me. I am okay and I take the teasing as jokes. But of course, I have the limits. Whenever I warn them, people thought I am joking. Until the moment when I show aggressiveness, they will stop to wonder. I will be very bad if I am angry. Doing the crazy stuffs hurting others. And then, I have to say sorry. If I am unlucky, scars will be in the hearts. For the worse case, deep down inside the hearts. I know I am small but that doesn't mean I don't dare to fight! I just hope myself to pass the EQ test of mine by being patient controlling my temper. Another annoying stuff, being criticised even I am doing the right thing.

I have a lot of tests for myself. And I know you too. If you don't have, just make some to improve yourself and for your future sake although 2012 is coming.

-steam-