My Mother

hi!!!

From the heaven down to the earth,

From the day of my birth,

I know nothing is more than your worth,

Just to get your tenderly love.

Because of you, I am able to stand,

I fell and you were there to give me a helping hand,

You smiled while I ran,

Because of you, I have finally become a man.

I know your life is never easy,

Teaching me 1,2,3,

Educating me about A,B,C,

And step by step to face the crowded city.

You are always selfless and not selfish,

I am more important than any other properties,

You won't put me within any risk,

Still you have the never ending responsibilities.

I know your life is hard,

You never complain as you treat this as an art,

I am always your first priority and there is no 'but',

Obviously, I am always inside your heart.

Above lies the sky so blue,

God knows this is so true,

From the bottom of my heart, I love you,

And of course, I know you love me too...

-steam-

The Lone Dweller

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He walks alone down to the woods,

With his old, worn boots,

Carrying some left over of the bamboo shoots,

His meal tonight with some fruits.

There he is alone,

Wondering alone even with fractured bone,

He has nothing to complain, nothing to moan,

Emotionless face to be shown.

Whenever he is, no one is there,

Whatever he does, no one is willing to care,

Hence, he has nothing to share,

Even though he is bitten by the bear.

Life is always unfair,

But to him, God is always there,

To make him courages and dare,

To make him the special one and rare.

To him, life is never plain,

He still has many to learn, much to gain,

He knows life is about endurance of pain,

No matter on which terrain...

-steam-

Time is ticking...

hi!!!

Hours to the deadly and bloody test as quoted by my dean and also my lecturer. I am still taking my time blogging and not even bother to study. I guess I have changed, A LOT! It's kinda hard to blog with bruised finger. Well, I got it from goalkeeping. I can't even bathe properly and this doesn't mean I am not clean, ok?!

I noticed many of my friends deleted their blogs and some even have dead blog. Well, it is kinda disappointing actually as I can roughly know what is happening by reading their blog. As you know, I am always concern about them, just like how you concern about me, right? ^^

I have been lagging a lot in studies as I am developing the procrastinating habit. It's very disappointing huh? Thinking back during my sixth form which I always rush to finish my homework and hate to copy others work (except for chemistry). Now, I rush to copy assignments which mean.... "Tomorrow pass up assignment ar? Lend me now" Got me?

I don't know what is wrong with me actually. For tonight test, upon 100, how much will I score? I don't dare to think. Seriously, I think I won't do well this sem. For one of the previous tests, I am very confident that I won't have any problem for that as it is all about mathematical physics. When I got the question paper, I smiled to myself. Unfortunately, I did wrongly in the equation. I was careless. In the end, I got only 17. One mistake costs me around 38 marks. Can you imagine that? Sometimes, tests and examinations really require some luck. If you are really lucky, everything will go your way.

Well, if you have a low grade in your tests, don't be disappointed. It's not that you don't know how to do, it's not your fault as it's lecturers fault because they don't know how to mark.

Like it? Lame? Well, it's all up to you. If we all think the same, nobody will be thinking, right?

I guess that's all for the time being.

-steam-

I don know...

hi!!!

In the morning, I heard people commented that I am the emo-type guy. In the evening, I heard otherwise. I am the funny or siao kia type guy. So, what kind of personality do I have? Actually, I am also confused. I admit I like to think and emo. But I also like to joke and fool around.

Well, you can actually say that I fool around to create laughters and then store the sweet memories inside my brain. Thus, I will have lesser space and storage for my brain to think of all the emo stuffs. Er...I think this is the way....kua. I worry a lot. I think and emo a lot. But when others emo, I can't stand the way they emo. I will of course keep quiet or talk a lot. By keeping quiet, you can prevent yourself from being scolded for nothing. But, that will keep the person continue emo-ing. That's why sometimes I talk a lot, hoping to bring joy and forgetting the sad, emo stuff. But when to talk? Of course when my brain calls me to do so.

But anyhow, which kind of guy do I belong to? Flirty and look irresponsible huh? Emo? Happy go lucky? All of them?

Its very hard to describe myself actually. Actually, I don't mean to be flirty, I just wanna joke. But of course, I am only flirty to those I really like. But....a lot of 'she' thought I am joking when I really mean it :(.

Well, I don't know why I always bring up this topic. Shit! Ok ok...Right now, I don't have any love problem or what. Actually, I don't really know what am I blogging also. Test is coming but football comes first ^^

EMO ON THE FIELD!

-steam-

He still needs his father

hi!!!

He gets older and older,

Though he gets taller and taller,

With all knowledge he gets smarter,

In the end, he still needs his father.

Adventuring alone is always better,

Gaining more experience to have the eye sight wider,

Undergoes challenges to get tougher,

But in the end, there is his father.

Pursuing higher education doesn't mean he is clever,

He is still in the fog and his vision is blur,

In front of him lies a river,

He needs to jump but still, he needs to measure.

He needs to get wiser,

To make his life getting further,

He needs to decide when to push and pull the lever,

To prevent his life tasting bitter.

Here he pours the sugar,

To have his son's life sweeter,

Sharing and enjoying the laughter,

Having all the smiles gone broader.

Here he explores deeper,

His life is getting wilder,

No worries as he has the best father,

But father will not be there forever...

-steam-

My Very First Futsal Competition

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I just had my two very first futsal competition and of course, I stand in between the posts. I was very excited about my first match. At first I was a little bit nervous but after that, I was so fired up and excited. But the nervous feeling was gone!

Kick off. I was in my ready stance although the ball was in the center of the circle. I was quite surprised actually. First kick was a shot towards me. Low but fast. Actually, it wasn't that fast but still considered fast. (LPPL?)

I saw him raising his leg high but I predicted a shot as I gained that through experience. I layed my body to the floor with my right hip falling to the ground and captured it. I used my body to stopped the ball and both of my hands to push it hard to the ground. Yeah! It was a SAVE!

I heard a very loud applause. As most of the spectators played with me before. That's when I lost my nervous feeling and got fired up. I know I did a blunder in football competition but the shooter shouldn't look down upon me like that. Half of the court, quite a distance. At least I managed to prove to him that I am not that lousy inside his heart.

The ball couldn't provide an big impact like football in which I can kick football high in the sky but not with futsal ball. It eats your energy and its not that bouncy. Well, I love that kind of ball.

I managed to save a lot. Yeah, shots came to me as my team lost many possession and couldn't attack like my opponent did. They shot a lot. There's one when a player carried to my left and I slided to prevent him from going further. He passed before my leg reached the ball and the ball got to his mate but his mate blundered it. He tried to shoot but the ball was spinning but not in the net. He couldn't kick it right. OUT! But that was a blast high in the sky. A volley of course. That was totally an open goal. But thanks to the ball. If it was football, I think I have conceded. Football can produce blasting shots from a long range.

Then second half came. My mate shot and it was a save. A rebound by my defender and GOAL!

The wave of my opponent's attack became more aggressive. Saves but a penalty because a mate fell down and the ball hit his hand in the penalty area. I got to my lower right corner. I palmed the ball but it still got in.

A draw in the end. I received many compliments from the spectators. Same comment, 'Good Game'. I was shouting like hell during the match. A bit disappointed as I should have saved that penalty!!!

Second match and it was a bit dark. Personally, I think we played worse than our first match although we did always defend during the first match. I was kinda nervous during this whole game. There was a long shot, but it was floating in the air and looked like going to my right and many commented it gonna be a wide shot. But, with my reflexes, I still did a flying stunt to get it away. When I landed, it was kinda hard and my butt hurts. I looked at the ball and, I told myself that I shouldn't fly so early. Actually, I thought of the football goalpost behind me during that time..haha^^ Second half and a goal. It was a one on one at my right. Some sort like zero degree angle goal but not that zero lo ^^

Then, the last shot was at me. It was something like the first shot just now but I couldn't hold it tight and I spilled it. Actually I hesitated how to save the ball :P Then I saw an opponent getting the ball and he was so damn near. He kicked and I put my palm at the ball. A bang and I grabbed the ball and I was totally flat on the ground.

1-0.

It was nice and I know some of my mates felt disappointed and I felt that too. But we had gave our best and I hope for next year. And my pair of second gloves was damaged. I prefer adidas response seriously as it was not so loose like the puma power cat. Both good gloves and adidas is much better for me personally.

Thanks everyone for the support and my mates.

Sorry for the mistakes and shouting...

-steam-

First Competition Match (GK)

hi!!!

Yesterday was my first ever competition match in football. It was the second match day and also the final match day in group stage. Lose and we are out! I didn't play the very first match as I usually thought that my school will produce flying keepers but when it comes to my ear, I was shocked. So I decided to give it a try since I heard that we shouldn't lose the previous match as the goal was the keeper's blunder.

When my team heard that I am playing, everyone was shocked. I see many of other teams' goalkeepers with bare hands.

Mate: Kamu pernah main?

Me: Main-main adalah...competition takda.

Mate: Itu glove lu punya ka?

Me: Ya( What the heck? Expect me to borrow one ar?)

When I first step into the field, I noticed everything shrunk. The goalpost, the field. I even noticed the center of the field is so damn near. And of course, heart pumping with extreme frequency( 200Hz? That will be the most severe heart attack)

The referee whistled at me and I didn't realise. Then he shouted ," Keeper,OK?"

I replied with a thumb up.

So, kick off. I noticed my team defended quite well. First shot comes to me and it is going to my lower right corner. I slided and palmed it away. That will be my longest slide I guess because the field was wet. I felt good that time though, still nervous.

Then 1-0. Yeah, that's the way. I don't know how but I saw the ball hit the back of the net.

Then a cross from my left. It's curling. I put my fists tight but I hesitated and decided to catch it. The hesitation costs everything. The ball slipped through my hands before I manage to hold it tight and I turned. I saw defenders flying to clear but still, someone knocked the ball in. IT WAS A STUPID BLUNDER!!!! Everyone was shocked! Even me, myself was so disappointed. How could this happen? If I palm it away, it will be a corner kick but at least, I won't concede such noob goal.

Then half time, I saw a ball coming towards me through ground. I slided again but to catch it and keep it between my arms and body but, I spilled the ball. Luckily, the last man helped me to clear. I got a cut because of the collision between me and the last man. How terrible was that?

Then, another shot towards my lower right corner.But this time, I was slightly to the left. With full stretch, GOAL!

We lost! 2-1.

I was emo-ing the whole yesterday night. I went for the concert to relax. I played and enjoyed but still, I was sad deep inside my heart. Even the feelings still haunt me when I woke up today.

I am so guilty now :(

Now, I know what is pressure and intensity. I was not well prepared psychologically for the game. I couldn't get the form and shine. It was really tense. When I heard "KEEPER!", I was extremely nervous. Playing a friendly game is much more fun. I hope this won't be my last match for competition. Futsal competition is waiting for me with I am the confirmed goalkeeper. I hope, I can handle the match tension much better. The day is next week, wish me luck and hell yeah, tests too. Training or study first?

-steam-

I Am Still Who I Was

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I have never been to the bar,

To see you playing your favourite guitar,

Lying under the sky, looking at your favourite star,

I am still searching for you no matter where you are.

I saw you in his car,

On the road of tar,

Leaving me with the scar,

Roaming around the bazaar.

I sacrificed everything just for your sake,

Walked 100 miles just to get you the cake,

And now, I realise I made a stupid mistake,

But it is definitely too late to be awake.

I shall wait,

For the day you open the gate,

I guess this is definitely fate,

I will live with it till the day I am dead.

Another day passes another day,

From silky black to deadly grey,

I will never be okay,

Until you come back to my way.

I went back to the bar,

You were no longer there to play your guitar,

I know you have gone far,

I am still who I was no matter who you are...

-steam-