Selfish...

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I know I am selfish. I just can't trust anyone. So,please understand me. I can hardly tell out my problems. To all my love ones, I am really sorry.


As selfish as usual
As stupid as usual
As cruel as usual

That's me!

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Be Myself...

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No more poem this time and I am really gonna blog my feeling out!


Well,actually I am not jealous at all. I see many people having soulmates or friends to share their problems but I just don't have one. Whenever I have problems, I prefer to keep rather than express them out. Maybe that's me.

But, I just like to keep. Many people offered themselves to listen to my problems but I just couldn't express my feelings out. I didn't mean to hide but after telling out my problems, I will feel uneasy. I prefer to listen rather than talk. Yeah! I know sometimes I do talk a lot but I can only crap. I think I don't talk a lot but I crap a lot instead. Haha...Haix.

Sometimes at home, I can still laugh. But sometimes, I can't. Parents will said I am moody. Well,maybe they are right. But sometimes I got scolded because I am in low mood. Maybe they just understand my feelings enough. But I just let them scold without saying anything. Haha...Who can take that? Well, it's ME!

I never mean to show my unhappiness to anybody else but I just can't fake it anymore. So, sorry to my friends and family members if my face scares you out or sadden you.

I know I am weird. I like to keep and hide myself alone whenever I have problems. But sometimes I do prefer people to talk crap with me. Maybe some jokes can make me smile but not a happy smile, dude. People may say I think too much. Haha...perhaps,they are right. If not, where will I get my white hair from? ^^

Am I being stupid or I'm cruel to myself? Express everything out? NEVER! But, I am having hard times dude. How? Nobody can understand me...


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Maple

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Should I go for a pure luck sin?


(An update still, right?)



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What Is Love All About?

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In this simple and yet complicated world,
What are guys to a girl,
Can a simple girl make them whirl,
Or she can only manage to make them curl?

Love is just like our mother nature,
It needs time to mature,
It involves the past and the future,
Sometimes it's selfish like a vulture. (hehe..^^)

Love has no reason,
Love affects every person,
Love has no direction,
Love is definitely uncertain.

At the beginning, love is so beautiful,
And of course the world is so wonderful,
Everyone hopes for it to be fruitful,
Everyone aims for it to be successful.

At the certain moment, love will bloom,
This is when the heart is being zoomed,
This is when there is no longer a doom,
Love is so cute like a giant mushroom. (can't think of a good one..sorry)

After a certain moment, love will fade,
No one can ever challenge the fate,
When the love is up to date,
This is when the love is dead.

Eyes will become wet,
Emotions will turn sad,
I'm sorry that destiny can't be met,
It's either to forgive or to forget...

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The Tug Of War

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Here, she starts to roar,
Asking for trouble and even more,
Here, she starts to gore,
I just don't even know how to end the war.


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Bishop, Queen and The King

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I just can't share,
And I don't know who you care,
I see her in your heart no matter here or there,
And I see her with you everywhere.

Inside your heart, I can't pull her out,
No matter how tough or loud,
I am not really that stout,
And I really don't understand what is love all about.

Love can't be shared like a wedding cake,
I just couldn't know whether your love towards me is real or fake,
Sadness and loneliness, that's what I take,
But still, I swallow them no matter how my heart feels the ache.

Looking in your eyes,
I don't even know do you tell lies,
Being with you, I don't know whether it's stupid or wise,
But now everybody can hear my sigh and 'haiz'...

I just can't share and I don't know why,
Between me and her, I am the one who cry,
When I see you, I say 'Hi', but when I see her, you say 'bye' ,
I gave you chances but you didn't even try....

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The Loner

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He sits down looking at everyone,
To everyone's concern, he is no one.
He feels like he is just an unwanted plant,
Feeling the heat under the scorching hot sun.

He has many things to mend,
He is still alone no matter where or when,
He knows he will always be a lonely man,
But still, he is still searching for a human friend.

Is he heartless? Is he brainless?
One thing for sure, he is helpless,
One 'friend' to accompany him with his messes,
His only true 'friend', loneliness.

Being thrusted and pierced,
He still can't defend himself because he is not fierce,
Everynight, being alone wiping his tears,
This has been going on for years.

No one can ever understand him,
No one can ever have the heart of him,
No one will ever have the heart for him,
But everyone can easily makes his life dimp.

Among the prawns, he is the only shrimp,
His life is so short and yet can be trimmed,
In the huge ocean, he can hardly swim,
Instead of shrimp, he is chosen to be the low quality whipped cream.

He prays to the Almighty,
And indeed he prays sincerely,
But still, he can't see the answer clearly,
Why is he so lonely...?


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Pacific Love Life

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Well,at first there is 3 couples on the 4th floor of Pacific Komtar. The 'Famous 3' I guess. So the first couple got it started quite well. As we can see, they got it ok and i just couldnn't know much. But during the relationship, they quarreled very much and it ended that the guy did the things that the girls don't like and the girl did the same thing too. So, it really needs someone to tolerate. That's what love do really need. And in the end, game over. The girl said that she didn't really like the guy but just pity the guy. =.='''


The second couple.Wow!A bit complicated. Let say, this involves 3 people. A, B and C. A and C are the guys. A tackled the girl first, B. Well, A did many things that can touch a girl's heart. Stop smoking is one of them. I know it's very hard 2 stop smoking but he just kept on trying. Well, sometimes I really do respect the guy. But C liked A since the first the he saw he coming to work. And C is a er.....stupid guy? He kept his feelings all the time. B liked C too. At times, C got confused that B liked other guys.At first, his pal, then her colleague......and finally A. A and B walked together and ate together. Well, it's a misundertsanding.

I hope you guys know what I am blogging right now.

But it goes on for a month I think. Suddenly, C knew that the girl liked him too. So , he confessed his feelings secretively to the girl and the girl was shocked. The girl thought he was just playing because A had did many things but C just did nothing to prove his love. Well, do love need proving? And days goes on and yeah! The couple involves B and C. Well, for me, I think they should get together since they like each other but many of the people objected because they are the friends of A. Love need friends? I just can't get the answer now...

And then, C liked the girl and fall deeply when time goes on but B was afraid to love him. She just couldn't trust that guy enough. She got a bitter relationship in her past. So, she just liked the guy only. And perhaps, liked a little bit? The guy,C was very sad indeed. He just couldn't understand because he didn't have a much bitter relastionship than the girl. I really pity the girl. And I pity the guy as well.Don't you think he is stupid? If I am the guy, I just wouldn't know can I be like him? Sacrifices of his feelings and pride just because of that girl. And I admit,the guy is me! I just can't believe it! Where is my ego?

Then, since their relationship is not so good going on, A came back to fight for her. It's really a tough time for the three of them. The girl got touched but liked the other guy. Who will you choose? The guy that you like but didn't prove anything or the guy that can make you feel touched but no love feelings?

After a moment, the girl chosed C! Yeah right choice I would say. But the girl just couldn't splash all her heart in the relationship. She was so afraid of being hurt again. And the guy,C cried a few times just because of the girl. Well, it's imppossible for him to cry for a girl right? And they broke up to consider and yeah! They got together again and the girl was so lovely towards him.

Since the guy,C who knows psychology and can judge a people by their looks and their talking, he told the girl that who wants to break their relationship and who is not a good guy. But the girl didn't believe her. Arguements again and finally the girl got the guy right. She kicked A out officially.

Then, the guy likes to hide his secret and that makes all the misunderstanding. He is a guy that don't even mind misundertsanding. Crazy? And now....because of that.....game over.


The third couple, the guy tackled many girls in my working place. And he is so obvious a playboy! But, he got his lucky third time. So, he got a girl and now, he is having 2 girlfriends. What a guy is that? They are the only one standing....


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They or me?

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They can't fight for themselves,
So, I have to fight for them,
But if I fight for them,
Who will fight for me?

It only worths me to fight for myself...



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