Lonely Christmas

hi!!!

From left to right,
Everything is in white,
No more scorching sunlight,
From morning til night.

Snow falls from the unreachable height,
Yet so soft and light,
Things so dull and nothing bright,
From morning til night.

Searching far across so wide,
I am not in sight,
No one by my side,
From morning til night.


-steam-

Just too tight

hi!!!

I have so many friends. The good ones and the ....bad ones?  I am so lost right now. I just need someone to talk to but, as usual, same problem goes....

It is never easy for me. With something dark from the past...

All I can tell myself is 'I am learning'. Tough moment...indeed.

This is only the beginning. But I am not ready for the next challenge yet.

Come on Steamer!


-steam-

When I was a kid...

hi!!!


Small, little steps and clumsy,
On my left there is mummy,
On my right there is daddy,
Moving forward happily.

Facing a terrible day,
I don't even need to say,
Crying all the way,
Mummy and daddy will be on their way.

All I need to count is one, two and three,
Writing big and ugly 'a', 'b' and 'c',
Life is always so damn free,
What is pretty, what is sexy?

Toys and toys,
Playing together with all the other boys,
There is no priority, there is no choice,
We had fun together with noise.

All I did were play, sleep and eat,
Mummy was always there to feed,
Daddy was always there to lead,
Only when I was a kid...


-steam-

Tensile Stress

hi!!!


Currently, TENSION!

That describes exactly the engineering undergraduates' life. I should always consider myself lucky for being one of the victims.

Everything has 2 sides. Being an undergraduate is tough. Tests and assignments are always there to haunt the students. And of course, the students or 'we' complain a lot.

However, you should always consider yourself lucky if you are an undergraduate.

Why?

1.Many are not so fortunate to have such kind of life.
2.Study smart and life is full of enjoyment.
3.Skipping classes or lectures is parts and puzzles of tertiary life.
4.Holidays!
5.There is no such thing as RETRENCHMENT!


Can we do that during work?


Since the mid sem break ends tomorrow, here is something for everybody going back to their universities.

Don't give others burden and load,
No matter you are a ship or boat,
Always switch on the cautious mode,
Always be careful especially on the road.



-steam-

The passive season...

hi!!!

I am not an outgoing guy as I used to be. Currently, I like to stay inside my room. Well, I guess, I can consider myself a busy man with me facing a book everyday. Of course, not only Facebook XD. What I mean is the book that can be flipped and the aura of stress coming out whenever it is flipped.

Raining season and it encourages me to stay inside my room more often with no football.It's been for A MONTH! Moreover I saw videos of goalkeeping and I am so eager to try them out. I guess all I can do is to wait and to face the book of stress.

Seriously, I am craving for cheese cake. Secret Recipe is the place but I didn't go. I had thought of asking people to join but in the end, I just brushed it off before I open my mouth. It's been quite frequent as I know something is missing. That very something...


-steam-

Some Air Grasped

hi!!!

Finally, I can grasp some fresh air. Still busy but not that busy as past few days where quiz, tests and lab reports came in one shot. The tests were like...thousands of sighs. Mechatronics was really bad. Solid mechanics was not that bad but still not that good as I hoped for it because I only figured out that I made careless mistake during the test when I was on the way to lunch after the tests. I guess I think a lot when I drive. I know it's dangerous but this is me. Thinking is my hobby which I don't really want to. By watching a simple movie I will think of what happens next. I just like this kind of prediction and I think super much before I doze off.

'What I did today? What did I do wrong? Should I do that? What should I do tomorrow? What should I study? Will I do well?Bla bla....'

3 more tests are awaiting me and I hope I can do well. Of course, without any silly mistake! I am so keen to join the football squad selection but there are several setbacks for me.

1. Time consuming
2. Am I really qualified?
3. Raining!!!!!!

Well, I guess this is brief enough to tell the current life of mine. Here's some of the add ons if it's too brief XD

I got this kind of  waking up early habit since last few weeks. There were two times which I woke up an hour earlier than the set time. I was so damn blur which I thought it's already time to get up and get ready for lectures. So I prepared myself for lectures and realised that after I reached the destination which was an empty room with total darkness. Well, getting up early is good as I can have my healthy breakfast at cafe nearby. I cycled to cafe every morning (weekdays ONLY) for the past few weeks. This is totally amazing as I was late to lectures quite frequent during my last semester. And one more, I also practise sleeping early (before 12 and usually 11 plus). For weekends, I usually wake up around 9 and latest 1030 (once).

Actually, this was one of my almost impossible missions because I used to sleep until late morning and sometimes noon last time.

So, what else? Satisfied? INDEED!



-steam-

Middle?

hi!!!

The feeling's still with me. The 'if' is always haunting me. Days passed but I still wonder about it but I know it's useless to wonder only 'if'.

If I stand in the middle, will everything change?

-steam-