He still needs his father

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He gets older and older,

Though he gets taller and taller,

With all knowledge he gets smarter,

In the end, he still needs his father.

Adventuring alone is always better,

Gaining more experience to have the eye sight wider,

Undergoes challenges to get tougher,

But in the end, there is his father.

Pursuing higher education doesn't mean he is clever,

He is still in the fog and his vision is blur,

In front of him lies a river,

He needs to jump but still, he needs to measure.

He needs to get wiser,

To make his life getting further,

He needs to decide when to push and pull the lever,

To prevent his life tasting bitter.

Here he pours the sugar,

To have his son's life sweeter,

Sharing and enjoying the laughter,

Having all the smiles gone broader.

Here he explores deeper,

His life is getting wilder,

No worries as he has the best father,

But father will not be there forever...

-steam-

My Very First Futsal Competition

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I just had my two very first futsal competition and of course, I stand in between the posts. I was very excited about my first match. At first I was a little bit nervous but after that, I was so fired up and excited. But the nervous feeling was gone!

Kick off. I was in my ready stance although the ball was in the center of the circle. I was quite surprised actually. First kick was a shot towards me. Low but fast. Actually, it wasn't that fast but still considered fast. (LPPL?)

I saw him raising his leg high but I predicted a shot as I gained that through experience. I layed my body to the floor with my right hip falling to the ground and captured it. I used my body to stopped the ball and both of my hands to push it hard to the ground. Yeah! It was a SAVE!

I heard a very loud applause. As most of the spectators played with me before. That's when I lost my nervous feeling and got fired up. I know I did a blunder in football competition but the shooter shouldn't look down upon me like that. Half of the court, quite a distance. At least I managed to prove to him that I am not that lousy inside his heart.

The ball couldn't provide an big impact like football in which I can kick football high in the sky but not with futsal ball. It eats your energy and its not that bouncy. Well, I love that kind of ball.

I managed to save a lot. Yeah, shots came to me as my team lost many possession and couldn't attack like my opponent did. They shot a lot. There's one when a player carried to my left and I slided to prevent him from going further. He passed before my leg reached the ball and the ball got to his mate but his mate blundered it. He tried to shoot but the ball was spinning but not in the net. He couldn't kick it right. OUT! But that was a blast high in the sky. A volley of course. That was totally an open goal. But thanks to the ball. If it was football, I think I have conceded. Football can produce blasting shots from a long range.

Then second half came. My mate shot and it was a save. A rebound by my defender and GOAL!

The wave of my opponent's attack became more aggressive. Saves but a penalty because a mate fell down and the ball hit his hand in the penalty area. I got to my lower right corner. I palmed the ball but it still got in.

A draw in the end. I received many compliments from the spectators. Same comment, 'Good Game'. I was shouting like hell during the match. A bit disappointed as I should have saved that penalty!!!

Second match and it was a bit dark. Personally, I think we played worse than our first match although we did always defend during the first match. I was kinda nervous during this whole game. There was a long shot, but it was floating in the air and looked like going to my right and many commented it gonna be a wide shot. But, with my reflexes, I still did a flying stunt to get it away. When I landed, it was kinda hard and my butt hurts. I looked at the ball and, I told myself that I shouldn't fly so early. Actually, I thought of the football goalpost behind me during that time..haha^^ Second half and a goal. It was a one on one at my right. Some sort like zero degree angle goal but not that zero lo ^^

Then, the last shot was at me. It was something like the first shot just now but I couldn't hold it tight and I spilled it. Actually I hesitated how to save the ball :P Then I saw an opponent getting the ball and he was so damn near. He kicked and I put my palm at the ball. A bang and I grabbed the ball and I was totally flat on the ground.

1-0.

It was nice and I know some of my mates felt disappointed and I felt that too. But we had gave our best and I hope for next year. And my pair of second gloves was damaged. I prefer adidas response seriously as it was not so loose like the puma power cat. Both good gloves and adidas is much better for me personally.

Thanks everyone for the support and my mates.

Sorry for the mistakes and shouting...

-steam-

First Competition Match (GK)

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Yesterday was my first ever competition match in football. It was the second match day and also the final match day in group stage. Lose and we are out! I didn't play the very first match as I usually thought that my school will produce flying keepers but when it comes to my ear, I was shocked. So I decided to give it a try since I heard that we shouldn't lose the previous match as the goal was the keeper's blunder.

When my team heard that I am playing, everyone was shocked. I see many of other teams' goalkeepers with bare hands.

Mate: Kamu pernah main?

Me: Main-main adalah...competition takda.

Mate: Itu glove lu punya ka?

Me: Ya( What the heck? Expect me to borrow one ar?)

When I first step into the field, I noticed everything shrunk. The goalpost, the field. I even noticed the center of the field is so damn near. And of course, heart pumping with extreme frequency( 200Hz? That will be the most severe heart attack)

The referee whistled at me and I didn't realise. Then he shouted ," Keeper,OK?"

I replied with a thumb up.

So, kick off. I noticed my team defended quite well. First shot comes to me and it is going to my lower right corner. I slided and palmed it away. That will be my longest slide I guess because the field was wet. I felt good that time though, still nervous.

Then 1-0. Yeah, that's the way. I don't know how but I saw the ball hit the back of the net.

Then a cross from my left. It's curling. I put my fists tight but I hesitated and decided to catch it. The hesitation costs everything. The ball slipped through my hands before I manage to hold it tight and I turned. I saw defenders flying to clear but still, someone knocked the ball in. IT WAS A STUPID BLUNDER!!!! Everyone was shocked! Even me, myself was so disappointed. How could this happen? If I palm it away, it will be a corner kick but at least, I won't concede such noob goal.

Then half time, I saw a ball coming towards me through ground. I slided again but to catch it and keep it between my arms and body but, I spilled the ball. Luckily, the last man helped me to clear. I got a cut because of the collision between me and the last man. How terrible was that?

Then, another shot towards my lower right corner.But this time, I was slightly to the left. With full stretch, GOAL!

We lost! 2-1.

I was emo-ing the whole yesterday night. I went for the concert to relax. I played and enjoyed but still, I was sad deep inside my heart. Even the feelings still haunt me when I woke up today.

I am so guilty now :(

Now, I know what is pressure and intensity. I was not well prepared psychologically for the game. I couldn't get the form and shine. It was really tense. When I heard "KEEPER!", I was extremely nervous. Playing a friendly game is much more fun. I hope this won't be my last match for competition. Futsal competition is waiting for me with I am the confirmed goalkeeper. I hope, I can handle the match tension much better. The day is next week, wish me luck and hell yeah, tests too. Training or study first?

-steam-

I Am Still Who I Was

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I have never been to the bar,

To see you playing your favourite guitar,

Lying under the sky, looking at your favourite star,

I am still searching for you no matter where you are.

I saw you in his car,

On the road of tar,

Leaving me with the scar,

Roaming around the bazaar.

I sacrificed everything just for your sake,

Walked 100 miles just to get you the cake,

And now, I realise I made a stupid mistake,

But it is definitely too late to be awake.

I shall wait,

For the day you open the gate,

I guess this is definitely fate,

I will live with it till the day I am dead.

Another day passes another day,

From silky black to deadly grey,

I will never be okay,

Until you come back to my way.

I went back to the bar,

You were no longer there to play your guitar,

I know you have gone far,

I am still who I was no matter who you are...

-steam-

999

hi!!!

A dream came true just now. I called 999 just now. Luckily it was nothing serious. I heard there's a snake and someone living at the ground floor complained to my mum that the fire department won't dispatch anybody here if the snake is small. I tried calling but I didn't see the snake yet.

It was my first time so it's always very exciting. After calling, I noticed that the service is not that satisfactory like what I usually read about when I was in primary school and lower secondary. Soft voices and slow. Connecting to another extension took around 10 seconds. What if there is a serious case?

After putting the phone down, I saw the snake. Oh my, it's hiding. The head appeared to be the tail. And hell yeah! It's the head. What the heck? The snake is so damn mini. But, they were already in their way.

They couldn't manage to catch the snake as the snake hid somewhere and they left after 15 to 25 minutes. That's all. What do you think?

But, it took quite a while to hear someone's voice when I hit 999.

Does it has anything to do with public holiday?

-steam-

15th Sept, A Day To Remember..

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It's been an emotional day for me although I didn't show much sign of emo-ing. I hung out with my friends, I mean old friends which was so helpful during the morning. I guess it is a little private here to expose who they are. Haha..

Yeah! Some got me right. I don't like to share my stuffs with people. I will only share bullshit I guess. Well, I am the man of crap. Er..which means, I crap a lot. Actually, I am not having a good mood currently and I can't manage to sleep although I feel quite tired now. I had a good laugh just now but still, the scar is there and it is one costly mistake. Regret? I'll take it as a reminder for me. I learned a lot actually. I think 'lesson' sounds more suitable, right? But, who cares?

Get straight to the point. I was quite shocked actually but I am extremely grateful to have such buddies( sounds more rapat to me) around me. I know they are trying to help. I know one of you told me, "I did nothing". But, you guys did a great job. Seriously, for those(those?) who spoke and for those who kept quiet. Thanks so much. Sorry for being so 'por ma'.

But, being emotional is not just because of that. I know some of you might think of the date. Well, fine. Sorry, you are incorrect. I noticed myself for almost spreading out some secrets of mine. Sorry, I just don't share. Sometimes, I do need someone but to crap with me when I am emotional. But, usually, I think loneliness will be my best partner. Whenever I revealed my secrets, I will feel uneasy. Don't ask me why because I also wanna know why.

What to do? I just hope I will be more careful during speaking? Or talking? Crapping? Whatever la...But when did I last reveal my personal stuff? That day, right? Remember that day I told you about...Yalo, that day la!

But,anyway, I love their stories ^^. They don't get mine...hahaha

I would like to say this to a lady. I hope she reads my blog. Sorry for being annoying but that's just me. This shows that you are cute. And to you guys out there reading this, please don't open your eyes so big. I am not confessing or anything. I don't have feelings for her. I mean it!

Coming back to my weird characteristic or behaviour. I know I told only part of my problems or stories to you all. It's like a movie with introduction but without the climax and ending. You can't blame me for that. "Share la a bit" ," Tell us something about it". That's what you all said to me and I agree to fulfill your request. If I ever tell you a full version, just dream on.

Miss my poem? I wrote some part of it but due to the outing just now, I just saved it. Hope to finish it soon but of course, I need inspiration.

There was a guy. I was quite amazed of that guy actually. He was being scolded for so long,' stupid people with you stupid car'. He still managed to smile to his friends. Where is his pride? He doesn't have pride actually. You can't blame him. This is him. I wonder how long will he get his pride? But, at least what he did bring a good ending. He lives without pride but did he do it right?

-steam-

My Past Love Life...

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Have been studying just now and it's tough.Really! TOUGH!

Life is just as tough as it is. Even I can't spare my studies from it. What the heck am I crapping?

Thinking of the past makes me feel so stupid although I don't admit I am clever and smart with my current status. If I have a time machine, should I go back to mend such mistakes? Will it be better if I just take them as lessons of life? Experience? Even with time machine I am still having dilemma. What a joke?

Actually, I should be very grateful to have such life even for the mistakes in the past. Without the mistakes, I may not be who I am today. Sometimes, I thought of the special 2 persons of my past. How are they? We don't even contact each other anymore. I know I was wrong and bad to them but it is history. But at least I know what is really meant by 'Good Boyfriend'. I have to thank them for this. HEY! This doesn't mean that I was a bad bf, ok?

There are still some mysteries between me and my first ex. A lot of people asked me, "WHY?"( Why break?)

And there are few versions of rumours about how bad I was when I was with her. And I didn't even defend myself and explain. To some people, I just deny. To some, I didn't answer. Still there are a lot of "WHY's". Well, I just tell you how did I think. If I explained and defended myself, will it help? Will this stop her from spreading anymore rumours? I guess it will be more, right? If you guys believe in me, do I ever need to explain? Take your time and think about that.

That's why some people are calling me 'crazy'. I used my image to pass one of the tests of life.

In fact, rumours stopped spreading in a short while. But I would like to thank those who informed me about the case. Without you, I don't think I will realize such happening in my life.

I am not trying to say she is bad. She was caring towards me indeed :P

But... she did not pass my test... Don't ask me why!

When part 1 comes to an end, here comes part 2. Haha..

Part 2 is very simple. We are not meant for each other. But, I fell for her so deeply. This time, it is me to ask 'WHY?' And until now, I don't have a clear answer but I made a hypothesis myself. Woooo.."HYPOTHESIS", a scientific term. Love is blind.

And now, do you know why that I need to consider many things just to get a 3rd gf? Love hurts and scars but, one needs love. Life is meaningless without love.

Thinking of those two... If I don't drive, will they still choose me? I know both of them wanted my time. If I have plenty of time, but without a car, do I still get a 'check' from them?

If I am not one of the top students in my school, will she still choose me? Which she? DON'T ASK!

If I smoke, will they?

Actually I wanted to say sorry but I guess they don't need this anymore. I didn't spend enough time with my first one. I focused too much on my studies but I don't regret for this. I am not a good bf. Fine, at least I admit, right? Maybe you can say I am selfish as I had heard a few trying to pass this message to me years ago.

For the second one, I easily get jealous. And I can hardly trust her. DON'T ASK ME WHY!

So what can I say? Engineering campus saves me from girls. Hahaha... I know there are some but not many. I see my friends having gf in their universities but not me. Well, this is not a bad sign. I can talk to any girl I want. And, I can simply FLIRT! But sometimes, I am lonely. This is life. Give and take. There is no such thing as 'only take' .

Conclusion?

DON'T ASK ME WHY!

*not condemning anybody*

-steam-