What If...

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What if I did hard in my studies,
Will I still stand with my knees,
Will I have to work like the bees,
Will my life have peace?

What if I did well in the exams,
Will I have bright lamps,
Will I have someone to fly me over the jams,
Will I have maids instead of ma'ams?

What if I were successful,
Will my life be wonderful,
Will my life be colourful,
Instead of pitiful?

What if I were chosen,
Among the princes in billion,
Will I get the love of red hot crimson,
Or will your heart eventually get frozen?

I am already at the edge of the cliff,
Looking at the only fallen leaf,
I have nothing more to believe,
As there is only 'what if'...

2 Years of Silence

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2 years have just passed. Many moments just went through unwritten. I am doing fine currently and of course, I am already a workaholic. Start work at 7++ am and leave my workplace at 10pm. Some said youngsters need to work more to learn more and have a bright future ahead. Some told me we should enjoy when we are young as we cannot enjoy as much as we are young when we are old. Confusing huh?

I am just wondering how long can this lifestyle last. Should I just go home early? I am still wondering will I regret in future. Being a mechanical design engineer in factory automation field was never in my thought as my ambition. I am not joking. My all time ambition is to go into the M & E field in which you can see engineers wearing white safety helmet looking at the huge engineering drawing. To me, that's very cool.

Too bad that I am in the totally different field from what I aimed several years ago. It just started with a call for me to go to an interview and I just went there for a try. The whole new journey starts from there. What if I didn't take up this job? What will I be now? Will I be wearing the white helmet?

Of course, among all the engineering fields, factory automation (machine designing) has a lot of opportunities in my hometown. I can simply see vacancies whenever I step out from my factory. What can you conclude from this? Demand is higher than supply :) So? Am I really so valuable? Not really because I still have many stuffs to learn. Hopefully, I can be the one with extremely broad knowledge and creativity as well as experience. 2 years of working experience won't bring me there anywhere near there.

It's Saturday and this blog is from my workstation. I've told you earlier that I am a workaholic. I realised that I take my job too seriously. I always want my machine to be the perfect one. I know it is impossible to please everyone with a design but I am still trying to do it. Stupid? Maybe. If I am smart, I won't be working today. In fact, I will be enjoying the day :P

Of course, being too serious is not a good stuff. Clashes of ideas and I don't talk to everybody in my factory now. You can't blame me. I tried to talk back after the clash but, you know... I tried but ... maybe they took it too personally.

Even my blog is about my work. Hahaha...that's all. Hope to write down sweet moments in the coming days.


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A Change for Life

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Finally, I am in my working life. Being an employee for a week and I started to miss my life as a student. One of the most annoying change is to wake up EXTREMELY early. Then comes to traffic congestion which you can always see people putting their cars in the MIDDLE of the yellow boxes. Well, I have no choice but to wake up extra early to escape from the jam.

Well, my job needs a lot of inspiration as I am now a mechanical design engineer. The job is basically about designing a device structure and its mechanism. So, being sleepy is a devastating state. All I need is a calm and creative and innovative mind, I guess. The job is quite tough especially for the freshies like me as experience is a great contribution to the design job.

I was introduced to a senior and I have great respect for him. I can see a lot of knowledge and experience in him and he is quite funny as I always hear him laughing with very low tone.I can say my manager is good also. He always 'jio' me to lunch together and 'belanja' me once. LOL!  And my manager is a funny guy. I hope my enjoyment working with them will carry on.

But my first day of work was ALL about photostating == DAMN BORING!

Things change after that as I was given a designing task and I haven't complete it yet. Hahaha..the method I used during my undergraduate life is not a so called 'valid' method for the designing task. I guess I have so many brand new things to learn. And so many things that I have forgotten are important towards my design ==

I guess til here for now.


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The worst project!

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It has been almost half year since I last blogged. The number of view is declining. Anyway, let's get straight to the point. I am in deep shit. I guess not many will experience this kind of shit but there will be some or a few. To those who had been in this shit, I wonder how you guys faced this kind of shit.

Here goes the shit. I am doing my final year project. Since the beginning of the project, I thought I will be doing at least okay but not that way. With my current supervisor, I am extremely stressed! At first I did not really wanted to choose his title as his attitude and behaviour is rather weird. Anyhow, he told me he will guide me and he offered me a copy of senior's thesis. That made me to change my mind. I took his title!

From that moment, shit has gone worse and worse. There were a few times which he was absent during our appointment for the project discussion. The problem is, he set the time and day all by himself and I agreed with it but he was NOT there! There was once in which I needed to go to his office for 3 times just to meet him ONCE! He didn't even apologize and act like he did not do anything wrong.

Secondly, he told me I have to plan a meeting with him to discuss and not simply go to him and ask questions. I am fine with it since this is his preference. However, most of the time I told him my problem and asked for guidance, he just answered, "That is not my problem. You have to find out yourself!" What kind of guidance is this?

Next, his English sucks! Although mine is not perfect but I am sure mine is much more better than his. Sometimes I don't understand what's his talking about and I asked, he showed me a black face and replied with a unpleasant tone, "You still don't understand!" Of course,man! What the hell?

He told me to do a few tasks and I did them but in the end, he told me to do another brand new thing again. Imagine how much time and effort has been wasted. And then, he said I was doing a last minute job. He doesn't like to go straight to the point.

Right now, I am still blur with my goal and objective of the project. I just did my best and hope for the best. That is nothing much I can do right now as I had make a very huge mistake at my first step. Oh ya! I just forked out around 850 bucks and he told me I can claim back with the maximum amount of 500 bucks and it is not guaranteed that I will get back the maximum amount of 500 bucks. What does that mean? Wait and see. All I need now is hope and miracle.

I kept this problem away from my family members. Letting them know will definitely worry them. I hope I am strong enough to walk this path alone and I am really having a stressed moment right now. I dreamed of my project when I was sleeping. The first thing and last thing on my mind will always be my project. I just need some guidance. It is that hard? I just wanna know what he really wants.

I really envy those with very caring supervisors. Some of my friends told me how good their supervisors treated them. Why I am not sharing the same supervisors with them?

Hopefully I will grow stronger...

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Fallen Leaf

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From the start, at the ground,
I was nobody as I was deep down,
There was no room for a frown,
As the Earth is always round.

Step by step, I strove to grow,
Looking up, there was at least a crow,
Just move ahead and follow the flow,
In every life, there is sorrow.

I was able to reach the stars that glow,
Soon, many came to borrow,
Sometimes from head to toe,
Until the sky started to throw.

Until the day I am not in the map,
I can't help with the gap,
No money, for sure no cab,
Day by day, I am here for others to step...



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Engineering Student

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They said my future will be very bright,
Full of colours with beautiful light,
Girls will look at me like a mighty knight,
However, I am struggling in the fight.

Missing home so much that I almost drop a tear,
And yet home is so near,
So many holidays throughout the year,
In the battlefield, I am still here.

I know this is crazy,
No companion and I am so lonely,
All I can do is study and study,
Sometimes, copy and copy.

I am still waiting for my lady,
Girls here are a few but some are pretty,
Til now, nobody wanna date me,
I know it sounds very pity.

Assignments come in so sudden,
Test is another form of burden,
Not forgetting project and presentation,
Welcome to the life of an engineering student.


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Fate, Fade..

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Things are no longer the same,
Blazing red flame has already been tamed,
Only memories are in the frame,
I am the one for you to blame.

Tears are dripping,
My heart has stopped thinking,
Cupid is no longer helping,
The moment it started fading.

Things have gone from bad to worse,
You can no longer quench my thirst,
I don't mind how you scold or even curse,
But why did it start at first?

I guess everything is fated,
You were the only one I dated,
Sorry for all the time wasted,
As my love towards you has faded...


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